The Color of Our Memories Chapter 2: Me and You?

The Color of Our Memories

Chapter 2: Me and You?

“Now let’s see here…”

I scanned the yellow flyers that covered the windows of a closed store. I moved my head in various directions to get a closer look at all of flyers. After a few minutes of reading a few of them, I put my hands in my jacket pockets and let out a sigh of disappointment sulking my shoulders as I did. I’m willing to do anything, but these jobs involve physical activity too hard for me to handle.

“Ahh!” How about this one! I put my finger on the piece of paper closely reading it word for word. “Miracle Bakery: currently hiring server.” I put my finger on my chin and thought about possibly working at such a place. I like food, maybe I’ll get some for free? “Jackpot!”

“We have a winner!” It’s decided then, I’ll go call them right now. But what if I don’t get the job? Once again I searched the flyers for another suitable job. In the sea of yellow flyers, I found a hot pink coloured piece of paper sticking out, the flyer close to being carried away by the wind. Atleast someone here is smart enough to use another color but yellow.

I yanked it off and read it. ” ♥Moe Moe Nyan♥: currently hiring cute girls for waitressing~.” Hey I’m cute! This is a hard decision… getting to wear a cute waitress outfit or free food? Hmm, I’ll just take these two flyers then.

After neatly folding the two pieces of paper into rectangles and putting them into my handbag, I began to walk to a nearby cafe. I could smell the aroma of fresh coffee and baked goods. I rubbed my belly and almost as if telling me to hurry up, my stomache grumbled. I put my hand on the silver handle on the glass doors of the cafe and began to pull it open. Just as I was about to enter, my phone rang.

I flipped open my phone and exhaled in an irritated manner. Please don’t tell me its- “…Reina.”

「Call Rejected.」

“Fine! Be that way! I don’t need you at school anyway!”

I turned around quickly, my eyes wide open and my mouth hanging, to see the source of the voice angrily storming away. Reina? “R-Reina! Wait!” What is she doing here??

I ran after her and grabbed her hand so that she would stop. She turned her head around…wait what? Why is she crying? I could feel my heart burn with guilt and pity. Was she really that affected by my decision?

“Reina…” I took out a handkerchief from my handbag in a hurry and tried to wipe her face, instead she whipped her head away and released her hand from my grip. She furrowed her eyebrows and gritted her teeth.

“Don’t look at me.” She cleared her throat and inhaled some air, fluttering her eyelids a bit so that her tears would cease falling. She looked down and exhaled heavily before she spoke up. “DO WHATEVER YOU WANT!” She said, um, yellled, pushing me before she stomped past. Her heels clicked and clacked against the cement sidewalk and she held her hand bag close to her. It was as if nothing happened between me and her, and she was just passing by.

I stood there, watching her disappear into the crowd as I held my handkerchief tightly. I sighed. I don’t know what to do anymore. Why couldn’t she be cold to me as usual and let me do whatever I want…

I leaned my back onto the cement wall, clutching my handbag close to me. I tilted my head up and began to sort out my thoughts.

She said ‘I don’t need you at school anyway’… what was that supposed to mean? I shook my head side to side. No way she’s- no, she’s probably just worried. Then, if she’s that worried maybe I should go back to school after all? I mean maybe what I’m doing right now is a bit selfish. But then if I do-

“Junjun. Stop. Just stop.”

I can’t go back to school. There’s no way I’m inheriting that god forsaken company. I sighed and continued to go back into the cafe.

I really didn’t mean to hurt you Reina, but for now let me do what I want.

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The train entered the subway station and a strong wind came in the opposite direction. The many people that waited for the train, all followed it with their eyes as it moved passed by them and came to a halt. The doors opened and almost immediately, the passengers made their way in. Near the front line of people that piled into the train, was Reina. She watched people go in, hoping there would still be enough space for her. She poked her head up to get a peek at who was already in the train. Seeing that space was being taken up quickly, she grunted and pushed people by as she slided in between them. She surely wasn’t in the mood to wait for the next train to come by.

“Stupid Junjun.” Reina said as she entered the train, hitting shoulders with people as she walked in.

She held on tightly to one of the poles on the train and gripped it as hard as she could, scrunching up her eyebrows. Sweat formed on her palm from the hold she had, eventually causing her hand to slip and hit the thighs of the woman in front of her. It took her a few moments before she realized what she had done and when she did, her cheeks heated up in embaressment. She bowed many times in apology as the middle-aged woman in front of her gave her suspicious looks.

She resumed staring at the pole in anger, her chin lowered and her eyes lifted up. She focused all her negative energy into the pole, picturing it as the object of her anger. Many people turned their heads at the strange behaviour Reina was displaying. The many eyes that stared at her burned holes onto her back which made Reina look around the train surprised. She faced front and tried to calm herself down.

Reina lowered her eyelids and relaxed her shoulders as she looked at the passing scenery outside the train windows. The sun peaked through the trees that shielded the passing train, the continuity of its rays being broken every so often. Reina looked up once again, and behold the sun was out with nothing to hide its rays. It shined brightly over the city landscape, but only for a moment would it be given to appear as the train station up ahead awaited them. Still, her eyelids were lowered and her eyebrows furrowed.

There was a pain in her chest, a pain she couldn’t quite explain. It appeared everytime she pictured the banana loving

girl’s smile and everytime she thought about it disappearing. Looking at the sun she was reminded of how this girl loved the feeling of the sun shining on her face and remembering this, the pain in her chest only became more apparent.

“Atleast… there won’t be anyone to bug me anymore.” Reina chuckled at the thought. She tried to convince herself that everything would be alright without Junjun, that school would be just as fun with Sayu and her. She sighed and let her eyes wander around.

” ‘friend’ ” Reina said. She looked up and thought about the word and it’s association with Junjun. “A friend. That’s why I’m concerned about her…”

After a few moments she ended up laughing to herself awkwardly, almost too loudly. “S-sumimasen, sumimasen.” Reina slightly turned around and bowed her head up and down. As she did, something caught her eye.

“Geez Ai-chan, how many times did I tell you to wear a sweater in the morning?” The brown haired girl said as she looked at the girl beside her worriedly. She lightly patted her friend’s head and took out a tissue for her to blow her nose on. “Here.”

“Dankd, Gaki-dan.” The girl took the tissue and tried to quietly blow her nose, as she was too shy to disturb everyone.

“Ah, do you have a mask?” She quickly searched into her handbag, not sure if she had one or not. To her surprise she found one sticking out of a small pocket. She took it out and put it on her friend worriedly, being a bit too rough and hasty as she did.

“Dankd Gaki-dan, but I’m nod dat thick.” She smiled shyly underneath the mask and waved her hands infront of her face. In response, the brown haired girl just patted her friend’s head again and smiled at her causing her friend’s cheeks to heat up.

“You would do the same thing.” Reina stood up straight and became fixated on the two, smiling faintly to herself. She felt a strange feeling of nostalgia. When she realized what or rather who caused this nostalgic feeling, she shaked her head furiously to get herself out of the trance.

She took one last look at the two before the bell indicating her stop sounded and the crowd engulfed her. The train emptied and almost as if unnoticingly, it became full again. Reina turned around and hurriedly exited the train before it resumed its journey.

Through the corner of her eye, Risa watched Reina as she made her way out of the train. She saw Reina quite a few times looking at her and Ai-chan, but decided to dismiss it. For quite a while the three of them had taken the same train to their universities, but today was the first time Risa paid attention to her. The way Reina stared at them with such a face caught her attention and in the back of her head she wanted to know more about the girl.

“Gaki-san, Gaki-san!” Ai-chan took a hold of her friend’s shoulder and shook it. “Our stop is here.” She stood up and waited for Risa to do the same thing.

The both of them made their way out of the cramped train and proceeded to the station exit. The walk to the university was short and was only a few blocks away from the subway station. They went up the stairs, past the people that came down and made their way to their school.

“Ne, Gaki-san? Did you move into your new apartment yet?”

“When will you stop calling me that… Un, last sunday.”

“How about we go celebrate?”

“Tonight?”

Ai-chan nodded in reply with a smile.

“Wooooot!! Drunk Ai-chan! Well, what do you think we should do?”

“Let’s go out and eat! My treat! Err, don’t drink too much though hehe.”

“What are you talking about!” Risa chuckled, lightly slapping Ai-chan on the shoulder. “You know I don’t drink much. Boo. Always such a party-pooper.”

“Whatever you say Gaki-san…”

Both of them passed the entrance gates to the university and made their way to sit near the fountain in the center of the pathway. It was still early, so they had a lot of time to waste before classes started. They found a seat on the borders of the fountain and began conversing. Talking to Ai-chan, Risa couldn’t help but feel like there was something she had to do. She focused hard to figure out what it might be, holding her elbow with one hand and putting her finger on her chin with the other.

“Am I supposed to do something tonight?”

“Gaki-san!” Risa felt a tap on her shoulder and looked up. One of her friends that she went to with in highschool and now university, smiled widely at her revealing the little fangs she had. Her black hair shined in the sun, shadowing her face as she looked down.

“Nah.“

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[ The person you are calling is unavailable. Please try again later. ]

“She’s still not answering.” Eri said, pressing the ‘end call’ button disappointedly. She held her phone with both her hands and put them on top of her thighs. Looking down, she sighed and played with her fingers. “When is Gaki-san going to get here…”

For almost an hour and a half now has Eri been waiting at their meeting spot and has made six calls. Tonight, both of them had planned celebrating Risa’s first time living alone. This night also had a special meaning to it. This night was the night Eri had promised to herself to finally say something she had been wanting to say ever since her and Risa graduated from highschool. Those three sacred words that she never took the initiative to fess up and admit. She was tired of watching Risa from the sidelines, wondering what [i]might have[/i] happened if she fessed up.

“Just try one more time.” Eri said, staring down on her phone. She lifted the device up to her ear and listened to the numbers being dialed. She waited in anticipation for the voice she had been wanting to hear, causing the ringing tone to take seemingly forever to end. With each passing second she held onto her phone tighter and tighter, until finally the ringing tone stopped and a female voice came through the speakers. Eri relaxed her shoulders and immediately began to speak.

“Gaki-san!”

“Mou~ Gaki-san I told you not to drink too much!” Instead of the voice Eri had been searching for, a different one came through: Ai-chan’s.

“Ai-chan?” Eri remained silent and listened in to the conversation between the two.

“Gomen Ai-chan! I’ll pay for it later! Oh Kame! What’s up?” Still, Eri remained silent. This time in shock.

She pulled away her phone from her ears a little and closed her eyes. “G-Gaki-san, I’ve been calling you for a while. Why haven’t you been picking up?”

“I forgot to switch my phone from vibrate after class. I’m sorry!”

“It’s alright.” Eri smiled hoping Risa would be on her way over. “By the way, where are you right now?”

“Where am I? I’m here with Ai-chan celebrating! You should come over we’re ri-”

[end call. ]

“She… she forgot.”

Eri held her phone tightly and bowed her head. She clenched her jaw from the pain she felt in her chest and forced her eyes shut as tightly as she could.

“How could she forget?” She opened her eyes again and looked up at the sakura tree at the center of the park.

As she continued to look at the pink leaved tree her phone rang. “But, Ai-chan was always more important than me…“ Eri smiled to herself sarcastically.

It continued ringing. “So I guess it’s my fault for being hopeful.“

Still it rang. “It’s my fault for thinking about me and you.” and it rang, and rang. It took a slight pause and then resumed ringing, up until Eri got fed up and turned off the device.

“A rainbow forms, the winds pick up, the blue sky~♪” Koharu rode on her bicycle singing the tune to one of her favourite songs. It was 7:32 and the sun was no where to be seen, yet still, she had not finished making the last of the delivieries for her family’s bakery. Today, her co-worker Sayumi decided to take a day off since she had caught a spring cold, leaving Koharu with the small deliveries she was assigned to do, deliveries she could handle. Rather than snoozing off at the cashier desk like she did today and the days before, Koharu’s mother thought of putting her daughter to more use. Koharu welcomed the request with little annoyance and did as she was told accordingly, the problem was she was easy to become side tracked.

“Let us make memories~♪ We can openly show our feelings~♫ and say goodbye to our worries~” She sang as she pedaled leisurely on her bike. The view of the park entered her vision and she smiled at the huge sakura tree in the center. “Good evening, Tree-san!” she said her greetings and resumed singing, “bye, bye, tan tan ta~aahh? It’s Saviour-sama!“

Koharu stopped pedaling and let the wheels of her bike continue spinning. She looked at Eri with sparkling eyes and waved. Moving forward on her bike, her smile changed to a frown as she saw how down Eri looked. Completely focused on why Eri had become so sad looking, Koharu lost complete sense of her surroundings ultimately leading her to hit a thick pole up ahead.

“KYA!!” Her bicycle flipped upside down and the small cake she was delivering became untied, flew out of it’s container and onto the pavement. Koharu landed on her butt with thankfully no injuries, except with a few scrapes on her hands from rubbing with the hard ground on impact. “Ouch…”

“Kusumi-san!” Eri snapped out of her gaze and rushed over to help Koharu, “Are you alright??” Eri took Koharu’s hand and pulled her up.

“Ouch! My butt!” Koharu yelled, her voice making a slight squeaking sound at the end. In response to Koharu’s high pitched voice, Eri giggled a little while putting her hand over her mouth.

“That’s good, that’s good, you’re smiling.”

Eri just looked at Koharu. Her eyelids were lowered and her face looked nuetral, not really sad like before but not really happy either.

Koharu, made a fake pouty face as she looked away from Eri. After looking into space in thought she quickly stood up and stared into Eri’s eyes, invading her personal space. Still looking into Eri’s eyes with a mock angry face, she… hugged her. Koharu nestled Eri’s head into the side of her neck with one arm, while the other was wrapped around her waist. With each passing moment she pulled Eri closer to her, burying her face into her neck.

Eri’s eyes were wide open with shock. Being hugged so suddenly like this was unusual for her, especially if it was from people she didn’t really know. After a few moments she started to calm down, relaxing her shoulders and accepting how strange Koharu was being.

“Mama said, if someone is sad it’s best to just hug them.” Koharu quietly said, her voice merely above a whisper. She stroked Kame’s hair a few times as they remained in silence. After a few moments Eri closed her eyes and allowed herself to feel the warmth from the embrace. She didn’t feel the need to resist, all she needed was comfort. She didn’t know Koharu that much, but her personality to attract people took affect on Eri. The silence between the two phased out the chatter of people in the park and the footsteps of people moving past behind them.

Eri tried to contain what she was feeling, the crushing feeling of defeat before an attempt. She was slapped in the face with a big attention sign after that phone call and was made aware of something she felt, but wasn’t quite sure of: she was forever to remain Risa’s friend.

Koharu put her hands on both of Eri’s shoulder’s and slowly moved her away from her. ”[i]What am I doing…”[/i]

Koharu paused for a moment and looked into Eri’s eyes worriedly. She looked down for a moment and looked up at Eri again. “Let’s get you home.” Koharu said firmly.

She took Eri by the hand and led her to her bicycle. She picked it up and held it with one hand so that it would stay still. She hopped on and took off the rope that she used for the cake which dangled over the lower second seat of the bike.

Eri didn’t speak. She remained silent and shifted her eyes from Koharu to the seat on the bike. She took one last look at the park and frowned. She would rather go home than stay any minute longer in that park. She sat up on the seat, her knees facing to the left closely side by side. Once Eri was comfortable, Koharu started pedaling.

“Please hold on tight… huh?” Koharu felt two arms wrap around her.

Eri hugged her tightly and slowly let her tears fall, her head laid onto Koharu’s back. She gripped on tightly to Koharu’s shirt and bit her lip so that she wouldn’t make any noise by letting out her sniffles. She nuzzled her head further, hiding her face.

“Thank you.”

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“Tana…ka-san?”

I pushed open the doors to my room slowly and to my surprise Tanaka-san was spread out on my bed eating a bag of chips. I scanned the room and saw that her jacket was tossed onto the floor, along with several empty snack bags. I let my school bag slowly slide off my shoulder and land on the floor creating a soft, muffled thump. Tanaka-san looked at me through the corner of her eye and said,

“Yo.” She took her hand and did a salute.

“Yo?? How did you get in??”

“Your mom let me in. I was hungry so I grabbed these.” Of course. It had to be mom. She lifted up the bag of potatoe chips to show me. Just like Tanaka-san, making herself feel right at home and taking out whatever she wants. Not that I mind though. It’d just be nice to get some notice once in a while. Well, usually if its like this something happened. I rather not ask, but me and Tanaka-san are really good friends so its sort of my duty I guess. If I ask her who knows how long it’ll take for her to spit it out without changing the subject matter. I rather not go through such a long battle.

“What are you doing just standing there?” She patted down on an open space on the bed, motioning me to sit. I went over to sit down.

I sat down on the bed and played with my fingers that were on my lap. I let out some more air and began to look bored, raising my eyebrows without lifting my eyelids. Maybe if I do this I won’t have to ask and she’ll just tell me.

…

This is taking a while. “Umm, you know, I have to change so if you mind…”

“I don’t mind at all.” I took a pillow and smacked her in the face with it. She laughed loudly and rolled around my bed to have her back facing me.

“PERVERT!” I laughed.

“Me? the pervert? Reading your diary makes me think otherwise…”

“Y-you, did WHAT?!”

If she read my diary then that means..!

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The Color of Our Memories Chapters 1 …late lol

Okay, so you remember when I made that post about posting up my fanfic here? Well it’s come! xD and 4.5 chapters late too Well better late than never right? and this might seem pointless since some of you have already read all 4.5 chapters lol!

Btw, the original title of this fic was supposed to be “The Color of Our Memories” but since I thought it was too depressing I changed it to “Hey! Just Smile.” After a while I thought the previous one was better (and the current one sounds to cheesy), so I changed it to that one.

From now on, on this blog I refer to this fic “The Color of Our Memories”

Enjoy! (and expect a barrage of posts after this xD)

The Color of Our Memories

Chapter 1: When I Met You

No – a simple word, with one definite meaning. It bothers me how some people can’t understand it when others say “no”. So now here I am, cornered into a wall by a first year waaaay too over his head (geez, they’re tall this year). Who does he think he is trying to flirt with me? I mean its flattering at first but now it’s just getting…

“Uncomfortable?”

I lifted my eyes to stare angrily into my suitor’s eyes. Well, no, that wasn’t the word I was looking for more like…

“Annoying.” I said moving my head to the side and gritting my teeth.

“Tsch.” He backed away his head a bit and looked to his friend that was with him. They exchanged looks of annoyance and returned their attention to me.

“Hey, just say yes an-”

“You’re wasting my time, will you just let me go? Seriously, take a look at yourselves and then take a look at me, what were you thinking?”

Both of them backed away annoyed. Did I say something bad?

I scratched my head and looked up to the sky in thought and after a while I shook it off and shrugged my shoulders. With a blank look I scanned each of their appearances. Without care I began to walk away, when suddenly one of them spoke up. What’s with them, they sure are weird.

“I guess the rumor is true. Kusumi-san hasn’t accepted one single date invitation ever since her father, how should I say it… jumped over to the other side?”

I stopped in my tracks and furrowed my brows in disappointment. Why do they always bring this up? I don’t reject them because of what happened before. Ever since, not once have I said ‘yes’ to anyone’s invitation! But… it’s not like what my father did doesn’t affect me.

Slightly, I turned my head around to look at their faces. The look in their eyes was pretty self-explanatory… they think they got me. They didn’t have to do anything else. This is more than satisfactory for them. I stared at them. Not with anger or hints of irritation, just the usual blank stare I always have. I shrugged my shoulders and walked away. As I turned around I could hear them becoming confused with what just happened.

Father, how selfish could you be?

*BEEP! BEEP!*

Why did you become weak and take a shortcut?

*BEEP BEEP!*

Whatever.

Although I think that what happened to father had nothing to do with what just happened, I can feel that tiny bit of doubt burning in my chest.

“Ahh!” I threw my hands up in the air and shaked them about. “What are you being sad for!” That’s right. I can’t let what they say get to me! So what if my father left this world! I still have my life to live and I’m sure going to live it to the fullest! “Forget about him!” That’s right, I have to try my best.

Suddenly I felt a burst of energy running through my veins.

“IT’S OFF TO WORK!” At top speed I ran to where my bicycle was parked, hopped on and began to pedal as hard as I could. Relieving stress like this is the best!

The wind in my hair felt refreshing. As it caressed my skin with the petals it carried from the sakura trees, I began to feel relaxed and soon enough everything that just happened was forgotten in the moment. I tilted my head up and closed my eyes, concentrating on this short feeling of serenity.

Just for this moment let me be in my own world, just until my foot sets upon land again and I return once more.

“KOHARU WATCH OUT!”

Slowly opening my eyes, I saw the blurry image of a motorcycle driver driving towards me. Huh, doesn’t he know he’s driving on the wrong side of the road?

… oh … OH!!!

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“Goodness, how much of an idiot can she be?” Sayumi, Koharu’s coworker at her family’s small bakery shop, scratched her head in an irritated manner. Although Koharu had been the appointed store supervisor by her mother, Sayumi began to question such a brash decision. After all, today was the third time she rode her bicylce on the wrong side of the road.

“Wouldn’t she atleast have more sense to know what side to ride on when the road is empty?” Settling her head on her two palms, she quietly watched Koharu doze off, moving her head to the side in a curious manner. Seeing how the store supervisor could change moods so quickly she thought about how that part of her coworker was so, like her.

“Huh, the only time she’s quiet.” A smile began to creep up on Sayumi and soon enough she reached out her hand to pat Koharu’s head. “Even though she’s supposed to be working the cash register right now, I can forgive her.”

In response to the movement of Sayu’s hand on her head, Koharu shifted her head to the right facing her fellow coworker. Sayumi lifted her hand slightly startled at the sudden motion and focused on Koharu’s face.

“Ge. I almost forgot for a moment how dead she looks while sleeping, with her eyes open and everything.” Sayumi searched around for a small piece of cloth, first searching her apron pockets, then her jean pockets until she finally noticed a pink checkered handkerchief hanging off one of the shelves behind the cash register. She tugged on it quickly and placed it on top of Koharu’s face.

“YAHO~!” Pushing the doors wide open, creating a strong force of wind, a close friend of Sayu’s, Reina, burst through the doors as if she was expecting some sort of huge welcoming party to greet her. With her hands on her hips she scanned the quaint little bakery with a large smile, her eyes twinkling. Throughout the week Reina was busy with schoolwork and part-time jobs. After getting fired from her fourth part time job, Reina thought that it would be nice to visit her friend to get her mind off of things.

“Shhh!!” Sayu said with a frown and a finger over her lips. She knew Koharu should be getting back to work but that thought seemed to have been dismissed.

“Mou, I haven’t seen you for a week and this is the greeting I get?” Reina made a mock pouty face while crossing her arms. “What’s up with you two? Eh? Why does Kusumi-chan have a cloth over her face?” Slowly lifting the cloth and peeping under it, Reina took a short look at Koharu’s face before screaming and backing away towards one of tables behind her.

“If you killed Koharu you should’ve atleast done a better job at hiding her!” Reina said trying to catch her breath, with her hand over her chest.

Little did the both of them know, that under that pink checkered piece of cloth, Koharu was fully awake. She remained still, blinking a few times to regain the scenes from the dream she had. A dream that was a bit too insistent, repeating itself for the third time that week. She sat still pondering at what it could’ve meant.

“Off in the distance there was a happy family… suddenly, his voice called out my name.” Remaining, in the same train of thought, Koharu gradually lifted her head up. “His voice sounded a bit too real to be just a dream. But, it couldn’t have been him, he’s dead. Father is dead.“

“Huh?” Sayu and Reina who had been preoccupied with catching up on each other, turned to Koharu who was now standing up. For a few seconds they both stayed silent watching their friend look at the ground. As random as Koharu’s actions were, the way she stood there, her face in deep thought hinted with frustration, wasn’t Koharu-like at all.

Becoming concerned, Sayumi decided to speak up walking up closer to Koharu. ”U-umm, Koharu are you ok-”

“Excuse me, I need to go out for a minute.” Making her way around the counter and hurriedly past the two university students, Koharu went out of the bakery nearly bumping into the doors before pulling them open. The voice she heard earlier, a voice that sounded so real and so much like her deceased father’s, was the thing she was trying to search for. Even though it wasn’t there, deep down Koharu wanted it to be there. Soon enough after wandering around aimlessly she arrived at a nearby park, the place where she could always clear her mind.

She looked for a bench to sit on and as soon as she did she dropped her body onto it. Staring at the huge sakura tree in the center of the park, she sighed releasing her stress.

“Maybe I’m just hearing things. Still, why did I get my hopes up when I know he’s gone?” Her focus was still fixated on the sakura tree. She watched it glow from the park lights in the night scenery, making it look majestic. This was her way of taking her mind off of things. To just simply enjoy the atmosphere around her and to ignore whatever problems she was facing. Yet, why wasn’t it working this time around?

“Huuu~ If everyone at school saw me like this, for sure they wouldn’t stop talking about it.”

“Hello miss, what are you doing out here by yourself?” Out of the blue, and at a time when not needed a young man about Koharu’s age appeared before her. With a grin on his face and his hands in his pockets, he sat down beside Koharu his intentions becoming obvious.

“You should enjoy yourself. Say, how about coming with us?”

“Excuse me, but I would really like to be alone right now.” Koharu said firmly. She stood up to leave when she bumped into another person who appeared before her, forcing her to sit back down again.

“Hey, come on we’re politely asking you here.” Another boy about the same age as Koharu spoke up. Grabbing Koharu’s wrist firmly tugging on it, he tried to persuade her to join him and his friend.

Koharu didn’t know what to do now. The thoughts she had before and the events happening were a bit too sudden for her to handle. Her mind blanked and all she could do was pull away her hand. She once again stood up to leave and even tried pushing the two away, but they wouldn’t let her go. She became annoyed, scrunching up her hands into fists letting out an aura of anger.

“Leave.Me.ALONE. Why are guys like you so persistent? Can’t you understand what I’m saying? NO. Get it?” Failure. None of the words she said had an effect on the two. Instead, one of them grabbed her hand and began to drag her to their destination. She gave up, Koharu gave up. She was annoyed at how often this would happen to her at the most unnecessary times. All she could do was state her opposition. “Let me go! Let me go!”

“Shut up and just come with u-”

“A-ano!” The three looked behind them and saw a girl about twenty-years-old or so clutching onto her books tightly.

“I know I shouldn’t be speaking, but maybe you should let her go? I mean she doesn’t seem like she wants to join you anyway…” She said, speaking up in pity for Koharu. Her medium-length black hair, shined from the light in the park making her seem like she had a halo around her (well atleast to Koharu). Her glasses often slided down her nose bridge making her push them up every while. She seemed shy and delicate, fidgeting with her fingers while she looked up at the three and down at the ground again. Because of her appearance, Koharu wonder why this type of person was her savior.

“Hmph.” The two looked at the girl, one rolling their eyes and the other loosening their grip on Koharu. “Whatever. She wasn’t that hot anyway.”

Just before the two left, one of them pushed the girl out of the way as an act of annoyance. She fell to the ground, the slightly damp soil dirtying her white skirt. She remained sitting there, in a state of shock. A few minutes before she spoke up, she stood there watching the scene between the three unfold. She debated many times in her mind whether she should act or not and without thinking she let out her voice. Finally, she pushed away her timidness and did something right. The girl felt proud for herself and her shocked face showed her disbelief.

After watching the two boys walk away and turn a nearby corner, Koharu turned her attention to the girl on the ground. She bended down to help her up feeling guilty for what had happened to her. “Are you alright? Sorry for involving you in what happened…”

“I-I… I finally did it!” The girl said revealing her teeth. While still sitting on the dirt she looked up at Koharu and began tugging on Koharu’s sleeves repeatedly in excitement. “I finally did it! I finally did it!”

“A-ahh? I-is that so?” Koharu didn’t know what was happening to the girl.  She raised an eyebrow and began to pull her up. “Well then, I’m happy for you! shy, yet crazy?“

As soon as the girl stood up, Koharu immediately felt the need to thank her. “Is there anything you need? I’ll gladly give

it to you as thanks! I hope she doesn’t ask for anything big.“

“Hmm, a cake… If thats fine with you?”

“A cake? OF COURSE IT’S FINE! My family runs a bakery so I can get you one for free!”

“R-really? But it’s okay if you don’t want to…” The girl lowered her head to the ground, and smiled timidly as she played with her fingers.

“Sheesh, you sure are shy. Don’t worry about it and just follow me!” Koharu took the girl’s hand and ran towards her family’s bakery almost too fast for the girl to catch up. As they were running Koharu stopped and lifted her eyes up. She forgot to ask a very important question first. “I’m sorry I forgot, but what is your name again?” She said turning around while still holding the girl’s hand.

“A-ahh, K-kamei Eri desu…” She said hestitatingly.

“And I’m Kusumi Koharu!” Koharu said putting her hand on her hip with a wide grin.

“…Is it okay if we not run? As you can see, my shoe’s heel kind of broke off…” Kamei grabbed onto Koharu’s arm, using it as support and lifted her leg up to show Koharu her broken shoe.

“Oh I’m sorry!” Koharu bowed multiple times, causing Kamei to chuckle a bit. Seeing Kamei’s smile, she felt an unusual feeling. Koharu looked into Kame’s eyes. The feeling she felt was undescribable. It was as if time froze and all she could see was the girl before her. Her mind blanked and she began to feel a strange warmth throughout her body, a warmth that she would later find the meaning of. “This feeling is… am I supposed to be feeling like this? WHAT am I feeling anyway?”

Regaining her senses, Koharu blinked her eyes a few times and cleared her throat.

“If that’s the case please hold on tight.“

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The sun shone through the blinds from a nearby window onto my sleeping face.  Soon after my alarm went off telling me to wake up.  Huh, I thought I reset it to wake me up at ten.  No school today for me, or for the coming months to come for that matter.

Slowly, I lifted up my hand and dropped it without care onto my clock to shut the alarm off.  I took a nearby slipper and chucked it at the blinds, closing both of them miraculously with one throw.  Ahh, that’s better.  I cuddled into my blanket and tried to sleep again.

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8-

“Argh!” I can’t fall asleep anymore. I took my pillow and threw it away from me. Stupid sun. Later I need to have a talk with Lin about switching rooms. I think she’d loooove to have the sun wake her up everyday.  She seems like a sun person. Sun, sun, sun~ Sunny, sun, sun, sun~!

“Oh well, may as well get up. It’s not like I’ll get a job by just sitting here.” I hopped up off my bed and began to do a few short stretches. After that I went to our small, very cramped bathroom to brush my teeth and take a shower. Suddenly I heard my phone vibrate on top of my nightstand. I wonder who sent me a text?

I went over to my phone rather excited. New texts are always fun to read!

I picked up the rectangular device and flipped it open. “Ah! Reina da.”

「Baka-Jun!! (ｏ`皿′ｏ)。。。

I’m asking you nicely

please don’t drop out of school! (＾□＾*)」

I closed my phone and laid it back on my nightstand. She shouldn’t have wasted the effort by sending me that text, it’s useless, I’m not going back to school. But maybe I should be thankful that she at least cares about me.

I began to take off my tank top, when my phone again vibrated. “Mou, she’s so persistent!”

I stomped back towards my room again and took off my tank top so that I wouldn’t keep getting interrupted. I flipped my phone open, not very excited, and began to read the new message I received.

「 Thankful my ass.

Get yourself down here before I have

to drag you myself.」

“Wha…?” How did she know what I was thinking?!

Whatever. Reina doesn’t scare me. I’ll do whatever I want to do and right now I’m going job hunting! But maybe I should go explain myse-  no Junjun don’t let her guilt trip you. Stay strong Junjun! Stay strong!

“Yosh! Today Junjun is going to get a job!” I stood proudly looking up to the sky (err, ceiling) and smiled to myself.

…

Maybe I should go explain myself afterall?

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Upcoming oneshot! Check it yo yo!

I have come up with a new oneshot idea!

It was, or will be, based off this mc :3 (for people that don’t know me, I’m a huge KameJun fan )

And now that you know I’m a huge KameJun fan you can more or less predict what this fic is about…

Alright, alright, since Kame was the first to rag Junjun out and repeatedly kept saying “Their relationship is suspicious” I took  that as Kame being jealous xD She’s the first one to mention it out loud isn’t she? and the looks she kept giving Junjun while Saki was talking seemed as if she was thinking-”Hey! You’re supposed to only look at me! o3o”, as Junjun looks up to Kame and has repeatedly  said that she cherishes her the most.

and THESE blog pics from Junjun’s blog post further supports my reasoning

—>

[Junjun: *smiles* Alright get ready! Kame: *checks to see if anyone is looking* Junjun: *presses button* Kame: *kisses Junjun on cheek* Junjun: WTF. (~♥♥♥) ]

In “Nobu” vision I see this as Kame getting jealous after Junjun was caught “kissing” with Saki LOL. (who am I kidding, Kame isn’t the type to get jealous D:)

When I saw the 2nd pic I was seriously caught off guard Yes, I was THAT shocked lol.

I mean, it’s pretty rare for Kame to give someone a hug….   …let alone a kiss

DON’T THEY LOOK SO CUTE TOGETHER? askjljkdffhgekjsed.

*ahem* So yeah… I’mma write a KameJun fic, just wanted an excuse to fangirl about them XD It’ll be based off the MC I put on this blog and will take place behind the scenes and off stage.

Do look forward to it!

…I realized I’ve been writing a lot of fics with Kame in them, hmm….

BOTZS Part 2.5: Through my heart I see you. (omfg an actual update here?! :O )

HAHAHAHA, I’s updated dish blog right herez farst

See, I’m not total fail am I? I decided to use some emoticons because well, I wanted to and it keeps my blog posts from seeming bland ♥

So here it is! BOTZS/PWAMD Part 2.5, Risa’s POV I tried my best not to make it sappy/cheesy since I notice I tend to make sad scenes seem cheesy

Buta Onna to Zetsubou-san

Part 2.5: Through my heart I see you.

Many events that happened the past two days, especially those involving Erina, made Risa feel nostalgic bringing back good and bad memories. After years of burying her past deep within her heart, she became bitter. Trying to forget what happened was difficult, painful and just when she thought she forgot it, it all came back to her. Risa sat on her bed and then after a few moments collapsed backwards onto it, looking at the ceiling deep in thought. Again her memories played before her one flashing quickly after another. Risa forced her eyelids shut and let the overwhelming want for sleep take over her. In a few moments she went to sleep, but even in her sleep her memories would not stop bothering her.

———-[Flashback]———-

I stood at the front of the rear hospital exit and watched as they carried Eri off into the hospital. I remained silent and quietly stared at the ground, my eyes filled with a mix of sadness and frustration. Slowly my heart began to beat faster and I clenched my fists into balls, concentrating my feelings into my hands. I wanted to cry, yet no tears came out. I wanted to shout yet no sound would come out and my throat would only warm from the desire.

The driver of the ambulance ushered me to a safer spot so that the incoming cars wouldn’t hit me. I shuffled over to the side and sat on the cement, holding my head. The driver didn’t bother me about how I shouldn’t sit on the ground.

…How could I be so stupid? I should have taken more notice of  the signs. She was weak… always weak. Her skin was pale, she was extremely skinny and sometimes she had random nose bleeds. It seemed as if she forced herself to go to school and most of the time she only came for half the day if she could endure it till that far. I feel as if this is partially my fault.

I got up, my hands still in balls and made my way to the reception desk inside the hospital where I would ask for where Eri was being kept. As I walked, my heart burned as I neared the entrance and eventually my eyes filled and tears rolled down my cheeks.

A week ago, I confessed my love to Eri. It took me a lot of guts to do that. I didn’t know how she would react or if she would accept me and get past the sisterly image she had of me. All that worrying yet in the end she felt the same. We only got together yet this is what happens.

*-*-*-*-*-*-*

Leukemia.

Leukemia. That’s what Eri’s father said through a shaky voice after talking with the doctor, his arm wrapped around his misses’ shoulder as she hid her sobbing face.

My eyes widened in shock. “L-leukemia?” My mind was blank as I tried to swallow the word. Leukemia, isn’t that… cancer? “Cancer…” The word echoed in my mind and without warning my eyes began to release tears.  Eri never liked going to the doctor. She’s always been stubborn and never paid attention to herself. All that time she desperately needed to be diagnosed, she never bothered to get a check up? I laughed sarcastically under my little sobs.

“Whats the point of a diagnose if she’ll just end up dying?” I said a little bit above a whisper.

Instantly I let out a yelp and forced my eyes closed, while my tears rushed down my cheeks even harder. The word felt as if it had given me a punch in the chest, shoving reality in front of my face.

“Well I don’t want to sit here and do nothing about it!” I got up, wiping my face, and hurriedly paced over to the room Eri was being held, leaving Eri’s parents by themselves. I opened the door and sat down on a chair that was beside Eri’s bed. I looked at her pale face and tried not to cry, and then held her scrawny hand in mine, putting it to my forehead. I squeezed it tightly.

For as long as I need to,  this is where I’ll be.

*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*

For three days I haven’t been home and didn’t bother to give my mother a single phone call. Contacting her hasn’t even entered my thoughts during those three days. Now that Eri is having a surgery, I was told to go home and only then did I remember my mom. Great, I wonder how she will react to this.

I greeted the guards behind the black metal gates and they greeted me likewise with a polite bow. Each of them grabbed a handle on the gates and pulled them open, the metal screeching as they moved. I walked up the pathway and greeted our gardener who was trimming the bushes. She returned my greetings by taking off her straw hat and bowing. Bringing my hand up to the doorbell, my finger hesitated to press the button. Sighing, I quickly pressed the doorbell and closed my eyes in preparation for the worst. The door opened and to my surprise, one of our maids greeted me with a bow. I expected my mother. After she was done, I made my way in and tried to make sure that I could make it upstairs to my room without my mother noticing me.

“Ma’am, the young lady has arrived.” Never was I more angry at Maya our maid.

“Risa.” My mother emerged from the living room and walked up to me, her arms folded and her face having that analytic expression she always had. Looking down on me, thats how it always is. She circled around me, her eyes moving up and down as she scanned my appearance, before speaking up with that snooty voice of hers. “And where have you been?”

I frowned at Maya and gave her a glare before answering. “I was…” I gulped and glanced up at my mother who towered over me. “I was with Eri.”

My mother turned her back towards me and massaged her eyebrows, sighing, and remained there for a moment tapping her feet. She didn’t approve of me and Eri’s relationship and multiple times has she told, no demanded me, to stop seeing her. She gave me the lecture that if people found out about our relationship it would look bad for our family name. To me it only seemed like a lame excuse to cover up how much she hated people like us. After what seemed like forever, she moved towards me with one of those fake smiles she had whenever she was displeased and tilted my chin up with her finger. Her sharp nails felt cold while it poked my skin.

“Risa…” She looked me in the eyes and smiled. Lifting up her hand slowly, she then slapped me in the face. Hard. I held my cheek, it stinging while blood rushed to return to the very spot. I looked at her nails that shined in the sunlight that came in from the windows. “Didn’t I tell you?” Mother squeezed my cheeks together with her hand and brought my face closer to hers. “It’s either this family or her, but obviously you’ve chosen that slime of a woman.” She released my face, throwing it backward.

“Mother, Eri’s sick. I can’t just leave her.” I touched my lip and saw that it bled. My eyes widened at the sight of blood on my finger.

“Do I look like I care?” She turned around again and walked away to the kitchen. “Go.”

“Go?” I looked at her, puzzled and angry.

“Leave, of course.” She stopped, sighed and massaged her eyebrows. “I don’t know you anymore Risa. Maya, can you take her away from my sight?” She shooed me away with her hand, telling Maya to take action. Maya grabbed my arm and led me out the doors while I resisted, pulling away in the opposite direction.

“M-mom, you have to be kidding!” I tried shaking my arm away from Maya. “You can’t kick me out like this!”

Her back was completely turned against me, straight and shoulders square–cold. Always turned away, never showing emotion or vulnerability. But what did I expect? For her to care? She didn’t show a shred of understanding with what was happening with Eri and she most certainly didn’t care for me  enough to try and understand. She never loved me.

Once Maya had finally shoved me out the door, she closed the door quietly. I stood there, gritting my teeth and looking at the ground, my hand on the door. Rather than feeling sadness, I felt rage. I wanted to stomp right back in and give her a better slap, but even though I wanted to I couldn’t. I turned around kicking the door with the most force I could unleash and marched towards the gates, my hands forming balls.

Even though I knew she never loved me, why do I still feel hurt? Betrayed?

*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*

It’s been a few weeks since Eri’s surgery. Summer vacation is over now so I went back to school, not that I wanted to though. She hasn’t moved from her hospital bed once. Although I couldn’t really take her anywhere, I felt happy just talking the hours away with her  like that. Whenever I stopped and looked at her face tears started falling and whenever that happened Eri would wipe them away and smile sweetly at me, her little fangs showing and eyes glazed. She would turn away immediately after that, squeezing my hand gently in hers. I could tell she was crying, but she made no sound. She would turn around again after wiping away her tears, laughing like an idiot and then suddenly we’d laugh together, gazing into each others eyes.

It made me realize… I always want to be with her.

Well, since Eri’s condition is improving now, she told me to go to school but I wanted to stay. Only because she tried acting cute did she finally get me to leave. Now I’m here, walking under this line of green trees on my way to the hospital. As for after that, I don’t know where I’ll go.

Yesterday I snuck back into the mansion and packed away a few clothes and other things into the small backpack I had on my back. I had already tried to convince my mother that time into letting me back in but… she didn’t want any of it. The conversation only ended up with an even harder slap and a disinheritance. If I wasn’t so damn respectful I would’ve ripped her apart then. Family? It seems… I have none. Everytime I remember my mom, I feel sad and angry… why is that? I shouldn’t feel sad, should I?

What awaited me at school didn’t make me feel any better. I thought at least my friends would try and understand but they… they all left me as well. They were pretty direct with it too… Seems me and Eri’s relationship is too much of a shock for them as well, or maybe it was the fact that I wasn’t wealthy anymore did they leave me. The whole day I wanted to talk to them but they would huddle together into a big group and shuffle away from me. They would whisper amongst themselves and laugh and sometimes they would act as if I wasn’t there. At the end of the day when I confronted them about it, they made it pretty clear they didn’t want anything to do with me. Me, the girl in school with the most friends and looked up to by everyone, suddenly has no one and has become an outcast.

Friends? It seems… I also, don’t have any of those.

I restrained myself from crying and bit my bottom lip. To cry because of those people, I didn’t find it worth it. I felt sad, but the more I thought about them, my mother, ‘friends’, I became angrier. My sadness transformed into a budding hatred. The people that walked by simply stared at me and walked on past me. I stared at them in thought. People are so fake aren’t they?

One after another, all this happened without stopping. All the people I thought I could trust, left me and  none of them made the effort to show any compassion towards what was happening with Eri and the only person I can really believe in is about to-

“Don’t say it.” I forced a smile on my face and patted my cheeks. “She’ll be fine.” I inhaled and then exhaled, my breath shaky. “Aren’t I supposed to be ‘happy girl’?” I chuckled.

I’d be lying if I said that I don’t care about my family or friends leaving me, that I’m not hurt that I thought they cared about me but if Eri can stay with me they wouldn’t matter anymore.

———[End Flashback]———

The whole day Erina lay spread out over Risa’s area rug in the living room. Risa hadn’t been feeding her properly the past two days she stayed and now that she was completely bored out of her mind, the desire to touch Risa’s stuff began to increase with each second.

Getting up with a grunt, Erina looked around Risa’s apartment. Since Risa had fallen asleep in her room, suddenly the idea of touching her stuff didn’t seem so bad anymore. So up around the unit she went, opening cabinets and looking in closets. Risa kept the unit clean despite her work schedule. Everything was in place and organized, but there didn’t seem to be anything that caught Erina’s eye or make her want to pick it up and play with it.

Erina proceeded to Risa’s room. She knew this was wrong but it was too late for her to stop. Curiosity had taken over her. With caution, she opened the doors slowly and tiptoed in. When she turned around she was shocked at how dirty Risa’s room was in comparison to the rest of her apartment. The only clean part of the room was the far left corner, where a clutter of Disney figurines and plushies were neatly laid on top of a table. Erina laughed at the sight. She thought it was cute.

Turning her head, she noticed a picture frame on Risa’s nightstand faced down. Interested, Erina walked over to take a look at the picture. She stepped over Risa’s feet carefully and picked up the frame. Lifting the frame up to her face her eyebrows perked up in interest. The picture was of a younger Risa in a school uniform and another girl with short brown hair, outside what seemed to be a school building. Risa was smiling brightly which shocked Erina as she thought Risa wasn’t the type to show her teeth for photos.

“Eri…”

Thinking that Risa was calling her name, Erina turned around quickly and put the photo back on the nightstand. When she looked at Risa she saw that she was still sleeping. Erina sighed in relief and sat down on the bed to look at Risa. Surprised she saw that tears began to stream down Risa’s cheeks, yet she didn’t sob. The workaholic was crying in her sleep.

“Eri…” The second time Risa called out the name, her voice was shaky and her mouth quivered, the tears continuing to come down the sides of her face.

Erina watched Risa, her heart aching. As if on instinct Erina slowly got on top of the bed and laid down beside Risa, wrapping her hand around her waist. Hesitating she, moved herself closer to Risa, the girl’s head close to her chest. Erina usually didn’t go out of her way to comfort others, but for Risa it was different.

Seeing Risa cry was a first for her and unexpectedly it hurt most to see her cry. During the past few weeks Erina had been with Risa, she could always sense she was sad through her emotionless facade.  Although she smiled a bit more than usual, it seemed as if that feeling of sadness snuck back in shortly after. Especially after what happened a few days ago while Risa was sleeping, Risa had been noticeably distancing herself from the former empress. She returned to being quiet and there were only few instances where she talked.

Risa was close to fully regaining conscious, but feeling Erina’s warmth Risa didn’t push her away but … moved closer to Erina. She pulled on Erina’s sweater tightly and hid her face as she cried. She didn’t want Erina to see such an embarrasing face. Erina didn’t know what to say, all she could do was coax Risa’s hair and hug the girl’s head closer to her body.

“Baka, I told you not to come in my room.” Risa said through her tears and sobbed, the salty liquid falling and soaking the sweater Erina had borrowed from her.

The longer she stayed with Risa, her attachment to the young workaholic increased and the more she became worried. With each day she stayed here, she didn’t want to leave and the more she looked forward to spending each day with Risa. She wanted to know more about Risa and see different sides of her. Risa was becoming the reason for Erina wanting to stay here. Deeper Erina fell into something she couldn’t back out of.

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Hahah, is it confusing now?… WELL GOOD.  If not… damn, I hope you don’t have my plot figured out

I had so much fun writing this mini-fic Two-three more parts and it’ll be done… seems soon doesn’t it?  ;___; and I would’ve turned this into a chaptered fanfic, but it’s too late D:

I already have the next two parts pretty much done, so the end is indeed drawing near

“sigh” Oh well, look forward to part 3!

GakiKame Oneshot: Buta Onna to Zetsubou-san Parts 1-2 OUT!

English: Pig Woman and Mrs.Despair

I finally decided to post up this multi-part oneshot, which technically would be called a sixshot lol. I feel especially attached to this story, so I do hope you people who haven’t read it on either JPH!P or Hello!Online enjoy it ^_^

It focuses less on the fanservice side of the fanfic, but more so on story and character developement, so please bear with it xD

Here it is!

Pig-Woman and Ms.Despair 

Part One: Into A New World

 

The laboratory was filled with a dozen of busy scientists at their workstations. Though they were busy they were quiet and carried out their business in an orderly manner. Accuracy and precision was crucial in this field, any unneeded interruption would cause a huge hindrance, especially if anything were to become missing.

Groaning, Erina woke up with her eyes flapping wide open. She gasped when she gained consciousness, breath suddenly filled her lungs, giving her life. She was alive, blood flowing through her veins and lungs working. What happened before definitely wasn’t a dream.

Erina lifted her hands up and moved them around a bit, her eyes adjusting to the light in the brightly lit room she was kept in. She noticed that there were wires connected to her chest and parts of her leg, and quickly pulled on them to take them off. Sitting up, she looked around at where she was. All the medical-looking equipment around her indicated that she was now in the past, as most of the equipment there seemed incredibly outdated and obsolete.

The former empress jumped off the gurney she sat on and noticed that the door was open. She walked out without a care in the world and began walking down the empty dimly lit hallway, scratching the back of her head. Before she could turn on the first left which led to another hallway, one of the scientists in the facility appeared and pulled Erina back.

“Where do you think you’re going!” The scientist, looked young, at least thirty. He lifted up his glasses with his index finger and looked up at Erina with anger. He took out what seemed to be a radio communication device and began contacting nearby security guards. “We have a case here, section D-21.”

Before Erina could speak, she heard footsteps coming nearer and nearer to where she was with incredible speed. The guards roughly grabbed her arms and pushed her along back into the little room where she was kept. As her mind was still hazy Erina couldn’t think straight. It took a while before she could rearrange all the years of self defence she learned back at the palace and effectively use it against a measly three people.

She had been kept here for a few weeks after she was reported to have been seen floating down from the sky, a strange light emitting from the clouds. The few people that saw her thought that she was an UFO, sent down from a ship high above the clouds. In order to conceal the discovery from the people and avoid havoc, the government hid her in one of their labs where they could do further study on her.

Forcing herself not to be sleepy at this time, Erina stretched her neck. She stopped moving and closed her eyes, inhaling air until her lungs were full. Both the guards looked at each other in curiosity while the scientist kept walking ahead. As soon as she let the air out, she opened her eyes and in one swift movement she… ran for her life. Erina couldn’t remember a single thing about self defence at all.

“HEY!” The guard hollered after her and attempted to run after Erina but quickly lost her when Erina took too many turns for him to see. He stood there in disbelief.

She made many lefts and rights until she finally saw a red sign that said exit. Erina pushed her legs to run as fast as they could and before the two guards on the other side of the exit could notice, she had escaped and made another turn around the corner. Thankfully, the gates to the laboratories had opened as a vehicle was gaining entry. While the guards at the gates were busy asking questions, Erina took out one guard without being seen, kicking him in the crotch and taking his handgun. Backing away slowly she did many small bows in apology while the guard held his pride hunched over. She ran into the forest in front of the labs, where she would disappear from search parties.

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After running through the forest Erina ended up on a highway. She climbed over the small metal borders that separated the wilderness and the road and noticed a nearby bicycle rider making their way. She lifted up the handgun she had lifted from the guard earlier and pointed it at the rider. Erina put on a menacing face to take away an misconceptions from how frail and cute she seemed. Moving her head to the side, she motioned for him to get off his bike and once he did, she slowly made her way onto the bicycle still pointing the gun at him.

“How far till the nearest town?” Erina said in a low voice.

“City’s about 15 minutes on bike.” The boy kept a stern face and hid his fear. Watching Erina peddle away, he dropped his shoulders and sighed. “Now what…”

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Up the hill, Erina could see the buildings emerge as she came closer. Driver’s honked their horns in traffic and masses of people crossed the street. Erina sighed in relief at seeing that she was now far away from the labs and was safe. She rode to a sidewalk, got off her bike and leaned it against a nearby lamp post. Walking seemed more refreshing.

“The roads seem familiar.” Erina scanned the place quickly. “I’m still in the same place, aren’t I? Same country right?”

“Disgusting. Her face… ugh.” A couple of high school girls that were standing near Erina talked among themselves.

Erina’s ear twitched at the comment and suddenly she felt her heart sink. Why were people saying such mean things? Turning her attention to the three girls that gathered around her, she began to wonder why they gave her such displeasing looks. Closer and closer they caved in on her, trying to observe her face causing Erina to become frightened and fall back on her bottom.

“See look? Isn’t it just gross?” Erina watched as one of the girls touched her face. She felt a finger on her cheek yes, but for some reason the feeling didn’t have any sensation to it. It felt like the girl’s finger was touching something on top of her skin. “Ew, it feels so rough

“Somethings wrong. My skin isn’t rough, at least not enough for anyone to call it ‘disgusting’.” Erina thought, her eyebrows furrowing. She still sat on the cement, the curiosity keeping her from getting up just yet.

Many people began to gather around her. They exchanged whispers and looks of disgust with one another as they pointed fingers at Erina, more specifically her face. Awoken from thought, she scrambled on the cement, hitting her head on someones leg. “S-stop! Get away!” Erina folded her legs up and hid her head between them, wrapping her arms around her head for protection. She was curled up, her head completely engulfed into the little shell she created.

Seeing as how Erina was aware of their staring and was now annoyed, the crowd slightly backed away enough for her to try and stand up. Sensing that the crowd had moved from her a bit, Erina lifted her head up, firstly seeing a bicycle in front of her with its rider still on top of it, interested in what was happening. In the rim of the bike, right in the center of the wheel she saw her reflection.

“No…” Dropping to her knees, Erina crawled closer to the bike while touching her face with trembling fingers. “This can’t…no!” She shook her head from side to side in doubt as she saw her completely scarred face being reflected on the rims. The bumps, the rough texture of the skin, the look of the scars on her face. No wonder she couldn’t feel anything. She didn’t even look like herself. It was enough for her to wish to be dead instead. Completely devastated, Erina sobbed bitterly and bent over to cover her face.

“Why is everyone being so mean to her?” One girl, coming from a nearby concert pushed through the crowd to see what the commotion was about with her friend. Hearing the comment, Erina turned her attention to the girl, lowering her hands from her face. The girl jumped in sight of Erina’s face, dropping the mask she held from the concert onto the floor.

Immediately Erina grabbed the pink colored pig mask and put it on her face, pulling a few hairs as she put the elastic band over her head. Anything would do, as long as it covered her face for a potentially long time. She pulled herself up with one leg and immediately began to frantically run to somewhere dark and sheltered, somewhere where she could be alone for a while.

Her beauty was one of her family line’s few good assets that distinguished them from the rest of the royal families. It gave them the charisma they needed to fool the people and keep their rule. Her whole life, Erina only liked one part of herself and it was her beauty. She believed it to be the only beautiful part of her. Shortly after she began to rule, beauty from the inside was something she definitely thought she didn’t possess.

The sun came down now and many people began rushing home. Stopping at an alleyway, Erina sat down on a pile of boxes that were laying beside a couple of trashcans and sulked in her misfortunes.

“Is this the price, the ‘condition’ that voice was talking about?” Slowly, she went under her mask and felt at her scarred face, her fingers jumping from one point to the next. “It feels so gross…” Erina retracted her fingers quickly. “It serves me right for what I did… but, but why??” She threw her arms in front of her in annoyance and kicked the air with her foot. One look at her face from the rim of that bike was enough for Erina. She didn’t want to look at her face again, at least not now. The thought of enduring having such a face for an unpredicted amount of time, pained her plenty. Sure she had a lot to get used to in this time period, but this face was definitely the biggest obstacle she thought she had to overcome.

“The mission,” Erina remembered the condition to another life. “Who? What person? Easy task? This isn’t easy! Who do I change? Is there a sign?” Erina said, as she resumed kicking the air while she ruffled her hair in confusion.

Thud!

“Ack! Ouch…” Realizing she tripped someone, she looked up and stopped what she was doing. A girl, about the same age as her with short brown hair, was on the ground massaging the back of her head in pain.

“Sorry. Please forgive me.” She got up and offered a hand to the stranger, but instead her generosity was rejected by a slap at the hand. Today held many firsts for Erina. As a royalty no one was allowed to get near her within four feet, yet today her personal space had been invaded many times and now she was getting a slap on the hand? Erina didn’t get angry at the slap, but simply massaged her hand.

“No thanks.” The girl looked up at Erina with her eyes, angry. “Weirdo.” She got up, dusted herself off and picked up her purse on the ground. “Watch where you’re going. Please.” With one last look at Erina, she scoffed and pulled up her purse to her shoulders.

Feeling guilty for what happened, Erina fidgeted with her hands and tried to think of a way to make it up to the girl. Unable to think of anything, she spoke up as the girl walked away. “Is there some way I can show how sorry I am!”

The girl didn’t answer but kept on walking, her heels clicking and clacking on the stoned floor. Now determined to try and make it up to the girl Erina ran after her with incredible speed, soon enough coming to be in front of the girl. Erina held up her hands in a stopping motion.

“Please! Let me make it up to you!” And with that, Erina felt a hard substance hit her on the side of the face. Thankfully her cheek was protected by the hard plastic pig mask yet her unshielded head throbbed with increasing pain. The girl hit her with her purse. “Ouch! What the…? What do you have in there?!” Erina said while she rubbed her head in pain.

“Leave me alone. You must be one of those weird female perverts aren’t you? Rare for me to encounter one. What, wanna sneak a look at my panties or something? Too bad for you I’m wearing safety shorts. Pervert.” The girl gave a surprisingly calm look even after the smack she had given Erina. Acting like it never happened, she went back to making her way to her apartment.

“I’m not a pervert!” Erina crossed her arms and stomped her foot on the ground in defence. Now even more determined than the previous time, again she ran after her.

“Then why do you wear a pig mask… go away.” The girl looked behind to check if Erina had stopped following her. Erina was running after her at full force, muscles pumping and her chest clearly moving up and down from inhaling and exhaling. “F-freak! Get away!” The girl`s eyes grew larger in surprise and she  frantically began to run away. Her eyes started to water from the sudden adrenaline rush.

After only a few seconds of running, the girl’s legs began to give in and she could not run any more. Soon enough her heels could not handle the strain as well, breaking off from the shoe and causing her to fully collapse on the ground and trip onto her face.

“Miss, are you alright?” Erina asked. Another hit in the mask, this time with a broken off heel from a shoe.

The girl began to speak, her voice filled with a rage that tried to restrain itself from exploding by keeping itself within her throat, turning into a low growl. “I’ll tell you my name okay? and then you can…”

“I can…?” Erina knelt down and moved her face closer to the girl’s, a bit too close for comfort.

“Get. away. from. ME.” The brown-haired girl’s voice shook with the last word and she cleared her throat. “Niigaki Risa. Alright? If you can find someway to thank me do it. Not now, not tonight, not today  but some other time okay?” Risa said the last word sounding sarcastically nicer than the whole sentence. She pulled her blouse down as she sighed and fixed her hair. “As if you’ll ever find me.” Risa thought.

“And I’m Kamezawa Erina! Nice to meet you.” Erina nodded with a wide grin under her mask and bowed quickly.

Risa sighed in annoyance and did not reply to Erina’s short introduction. Feeling the harshness coming from Risa, Erina kept her mouth shut and helped Risa up. She tried to help Risa dust herself off, but the harsh glare given to her stopped her from doing anything else. If she wasn’t careful, her chance at another life might have been forfeited.

“Alright then. Bye.” Waving, Erina watched Risa walk to her destination bare foot. Now that only she remained in the alley, a feeling of loneliness began to creep up on her along with fear. She didn’t know where she was and other than that she was a fugitive. It wasn’t safe for her to be alone like this without a hideout. “Niigaki-san wait up!”

Without hesitation, Risa ran as best she could bare foot, eager to get away from Erina however that may be. “Buta-Kame, leave me alone!” Risa yelled, running down the street trying to lose Erina. “Mou, iyada…”

“Pig-turtle?” Erina shortly thought about the quickly made up nickname while she ran. “Wait, whats that supposed to mean? Hey!”

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Part Two: Slow Recovery?

Risa dug into her pockets of jacket for her keys to her apartment unit, took the silver piece of metal out and hurriedly shoved it into the keyhole. She got in, opened the lights and closed the door, leaning on it and then sliding down to sit on her bottom. Sighing, she looked up at the textured ceiling and closed her eyes, exhausted.

“Finally.” Risa ruffled up her hair a bit and stood up. “Lost her.”

She went over to the kitchen and opened the fridge, searching for a can of beer she could drink. Luckily, there was one last can for her to drink the stress of the day away. She pulled on the tab of the can, opened it and pressed the tab down again. Before bringing it to her lips, she suddenly remembered Erina and became annoyed.

“Creep.” She drank in the alcohol beverage, almost finishing the whole thing in one continuous gulp. When she wiped her lips, unexpectedly she began to laugh, teeth exposed and eyes smiling. It’s been a while since she felt a warm happiness like this and smile at the same time. All this time by herself, something like the wild goose chase that happened today had never happened. Risa began to feel nostalgic, as if she was in high school again. As she laughed, the image of Erina running after her popped into her mind and immediately she stopped and cleared her throat. “Creep.”

Though Erina was strange, wearing a pig mask and a white hospital-type gown, she gave off a warm aura. Through the mask and white gown, Risa could easily see that on their first meeting, yet she forced herself to think otherwise. People like that shouldn’t be trusted and even if they seemed friendly they could turn around any time. Risa knew that more than anyone.

Shaking her head to clear her mind, Risa went over to her white lounge chair which she frequently fell asleep on. Shortly after sitting on it and laying her head back on the seat for a short rest, she feel asleep.

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Hunching over the white lounge chair, a girl wearing a pig mask, Erina, closely watched Risa sleep peacefully. Becoming bored, Erina’s expression changed from one of interest to neutrality and she laid her face on top of Risa’s.

“Niigak-san, wake up.” Erina moved her face and hips from side to side, the lips of her mask giving Risa’s forehead many tiny smooches.

Grunting, Risa slowly woke up. Shocked she pushed Erina away from her and picked up a nearby broom for defence. “Buta-Kame!” She tightened her grip on the broom and began to smack Erina in the hips. “GET OUT! You freak! Stalker! Creeper!”

“S-stop! That hurts!” Erina jumped trying to avoid Risa’s smacks in  the butt. “Wait! I have something to say!”

“What?” Risa stopped and listened to what Erina had to say before she would kick her out, her defences up and ready to be used. She closely scanned the pig mask Erina was wearing for the first time, and cringed. The mask smiled all the time, looking hungry, and it’s eyes had the same empty eyes of “chiyo chichi”. The two red ovals on each side of the cheek illustrated that the pig was blushing  and did not help in making it seem cute at all. Instead of making Erina seem friendly like she was, it made her seem to be dangerous and eerie. “Well what? Are you gonna say anything before your next whooping?”

Erina fidgeted with her fingers and tried acting cute. Risa tried to contain her laughter, her chest shaking and lips quivering from the pressure. With the pig mask on, the cute act had no affect on Risa, well at least the desired affect.

“Can I stay here?” Erina said. Immediately, Risa stopped laughing and reverted back to the serious expression she always had on.

“…”

“…Plea-”

“Get out.” Risa pointed at the door with the broom and entrusted that Erina would make her way out. Erina sulked her shoulders and turned around in disappointment. She opened the door to leave and Risa spoke up. “How’d you get in here anyway?”

“Lock your door before drinking beer and falling asleep.”

“Ahh…” Risa began to nod, but when she noticed something wrong with the statement she stopped. “You were watching me?!” She picked up her broom again and threw it at Erina but missed since the target had quickly made an escape.

After closing the door, Erina leaned on it from the outside. “Niigaki-san I’ll do anything. I have no where to stay.” There was no response from the other girl. Erina continued, “I just need to stay for a few days. It won’t be long!” The door opened suddenly and Erina jumped out of the way. From the little opening, Risa poked her small head out of the door.

“You’ll do anything?” Risa asked, her left eyebrow perking up with interest. Erina nodded with her hands by her sides. “Then, show me your real face.”

“I-I can’t do that.” Erina gulped. Even though the pig mask was embarrassing to wear, her scarred face would be even more painful for her to show, let alone walk around in.

“Then I can’t let you stay.” Risa began to close the door, but just until she could fully close it Erina stuck her foot between the door and wall.

“PLEASE! I have no where to go, I don’t know this place. I’m all alone, help meeee.” Erina tugged on Risa’s arm. She desperately needed to find a place to say if she wanted to lay low. Since using her cute face to get a place to stay was out of the question, pure begging would have to do.

“All alone?” Instantly many of Risa’s memories of her youth came back to her. She looked at Erina and saw that she began to bend down to a kneel. Risa’s eyes widened.

I don’t know you any more Risa. Leave.

Who said we were friends?

Risa, goodbye.

Looking at Erina, Risa saw her younger self in the same position, kneeling down and begging for a place to stay, yet no one would give her one. What was she doing? Isn’t it the very thing she hated? Treating others with no compassion or consideration. “Buta-Kame get up.” Risa felt guilty. She could see that Erina wasn’t that bad of a person, yet she treated her so badly the first time they met. “You can stay.”

“Really!?” Erina got up happy and jumped on Risa, giving her one giant hug. “Thank you! thank you! thank you!”

Risa blushed. It’s been a while since she received a hug and getting one so suddenly like this was unexpected. It felt warm and unconsciously she wanted to retain the warm sensation, her hands rising up on their own to wrap around Erina’s back. When Erina suddenly stopped to look at Risa in the eyes, Risa hurriedly put her hands at her sides and looked away from Erina embarrassed.

“Oh?” Erina tilted her head to the side. “You wanted more?” She stepped back and held her arms out for Risa. “Come here!” Behind her mask Erina grinned.

Risa was surprised at Erina and became embarrassed. Now, her cheeks were redder than ever. “Come on, lets go in.” Rejecting Erina’s hug offer, Risa turned around with a confused Erina following closely behind.

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Once they got in, Risa immediately went over to her lounge chair to rest her head. Getting up so suddenly like that gave her a headache. Every week she would work to her capacity at the office like doing paperwork, doing simple tasks for the head supervisor and inputting entries into the computer. Sometimes she would even work late beyond her assigned shift. During the weekends or any day off she had, she would just doze off until the late afternoon.

Erina got in and made herself comfortable on the floor as the only sofa in Risa’s cramped living room was the lounge chair, currently occupied Risa. Looking at Risa and seeing that she was close to falling asleep again, she became annoyed and behind her mask she gave a frown to Risa.

“What?” Risa, with her head laid back on the sofa, spoke with her eyes closed. “Don’t frown. Whats the matter?”

Surprised at how Risa could sense her expression, Erina stuttered before answering. “It’s just that… is this all you do?”

“Give me a minute. I need to talk to you.” Risa sighed and massaged her eyebrows. Forcing her eyes open, she stretched and lifted her head off the chair lifelessly. “My rules are pretty simple…” Risa stopped for a moment as Erina nearly lifted her mask to wipe sweat off her cheek, nearly revealing her face. She then continued with the same serious, yet sleepy expression. “First: Go in my room without permission, I kick you out. You sleep here. Secondly, since you’re here you have to follow what I tell you. Got it?”

Risa didn’t exactly trust Erina yet but seeing as the girl was genuinely needing help, her guard against the pig-masked woman softened though not entirely disappearing. To Risa offering Erina a place to stay was an act of compassion. She had no plans to make friends but she did admit that communication with the girl was inevitable. Erina nodded reluctantly and pursed her lips, sucking in air. The rules to her seemed a bit ridiculous  and hard to keep.

Risa smiled sweetly seeing that Erina had agreed and ruffled up the girl’s hair with her right hand. During that moment, Erina’s heart stopped in awe of Risa’s beauty. When the girl smiled, it seemed as if her mouth was too small to retain it. It was bright, her eyes smiling along with her mouth. Through the tinted plastic eyes of the pig mask, Erina stared blankly into space, the effect of the smile still upon her.

Erina stared at Risa sleeping soundly on the lounge chair, her heart beating faster. Somehow, staring at the girl sleep Erina knew that Risa was the person, her “mission” but other than that she began to feel something different towards Risa, an emotion she rarely felt.

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Risa sat quietly on the floor in her living room painting her finger nails. It’s been a while since she had free time and now that Erina was there, using that free time for sleep was out of the question. Painting her nails and decorating them had been a past time of hers, but lately she had been too tired to carry on with it.

“AHAHAHA!!” Erina kicked her legs and fell backwards on the floor in laughter totally engaged into the variety program being shown. The former empress’ loud and sudden outburst startled Risa, causing her to almost spill her bottle of red nail polish she had on the small coffee table. Risa glared at the back of Erina’s head and rolled her eyes.

Erina had stayed at Risa’s cramped apartment for a almost two weeks now and has stayed put, not going anywhere. With no where to go and nothing to do, Erina lived off of Risa, eating her food, watching her tv and making tiny messes in the places she would be in. Although it annoyed Risa, for now she dismissed Erina’s laziness since she had just arrived. After spending time with the girl, Risa’s harsh attitude towards Erina lessened greatly, yet she still kept her distance. Erina just had that charisma that made it impossible for others to dislike her, even a cold-hearted person like Risa.    

“Hey you.” Risa said, still focusing on her finger nails. “I was just wondering, where do you come from? You don’t seem from around here.”

Erina turned her head to look at Risa. “I live around the area…?”

“Really? Where do you live then? Won’t anyone be wondering where you are?” Risa dipped the brush into the bottle again before applying it to her other index finger.

“Auntie and the rest of them are probably glad I’m dead. Now they can have the kingdom to themselves[… Uhh, some stuff, happened… I-it’s complicated. I don’t know if you’ll understand.”

Risa stopped and frowned. “Really?” She sighed and shrugged her shoulders. “I won’t force you to tell me but… you’re not some sort of criminal right? I mean that pig mask kind of makes you seem like a serial killer or rapist…”

Erina’s eyes widened and she waved her hands in front of her in denial. “I’m not! Something happened so I have to wear this.”

Still focused on her nails, Risa continued to paint them. “You sure you’re not just extremely hideous or something?”

Taking a nearby green bean pillow, Erina picked it up and threw it in Risa’s direction, the pilow hitting her on the head and dropping to the ground. “Go get me some orange juice.”

“Sure.” Risa got up massaging her head, hiding her anger behind her smile.“Yeah, hurry up. Make sure it’s 100% kay’?” Erina faced forward towards the television and resumed watching the program. In a few moments, Risa came back with Erina’s orange juice.

Squatting down behind Erina, Risa laid her head on her shoulder. “ButaKame…”  Only during these times would she use the nickname for Erina. Risa smiled, her anger waiting to be released. “Would you like ice with your orange juice?” Risa put the glass on top of the coffee table.

“You idiot, of course- UWAH!” Erina jumped backwards as she felt four cold ice cubes slide down her back. She jumped backwards, pushing Risa back in the process, and fell in between Risa’s legs, squirming around in freight. “COOOOLD! Ahahahaha!! COLD!!!” Erina flipped around to be on top of Risa, giggling, and reached under the back of her shirt to remove the remaining ice cubes. “Mou, Niigaki-san that was really…”

Covering her eyes with her palms, Risa tried hard not to laugh, a smirk slowly growing into a grin. Finally she couldn’t take it any more and burst out laughing, harder than she had in a while and covered her eyes with her arm. Erina’s eyes widened. It’s been the first time she saw Risa laugh and knowing that the girl laughed because of her, she blushed. Her smile was really dazzling.

The both of them laid on the carpet, Erina hovering above Risa, smiling along with the girl as she laughed to her heart’s content. Being in this position and seeing Risa smile so happily, Erina’s heart beat faster and she had the urge to hug her.

“Niigaki-san…” Erina said while Risa’s laughing slowed. “Do you not hate me anymore?” she paused, “…do you consider me a friend now?”

Risa stopped laughing and her smile dropped to a frown. Her arm covered her eyes, hiding away any emotion she seemed to have. “Depends.” She sat up, making Eri do the same, and looked away from Erina with sad eyes. “Can I trust you?”

Erina gulped. “I’m irresponsible and selfish but…” She looked at Risa in the eyes. “If it’s Gaki-san, I’ll try my best so that you can trust me.”

Risa smiled with her eyelids low. “Really?” said Risa, chuckling. She glanced at Erina who was still looking down at her lap and stretched. “Uwah~! That sounded like some lame confession. Hahaha.”

Immediately, Erina held her breath and blushed. “So, so, so, am I your friend?? Am I, am I, am I, am I?!”

Getting up, Risa smiled faintly and patted Erina on the head. “Shut up and drink your orange juice.” She made her way to her room, slid the door closed slowly and leaned against it. “‘friends’? Sometimes I feel as if… I want more than that.” Sighing she went over to sit on her bed and once she sat down her eyes wandered on the floor.  “What are you doing Risa… “

Risa rested her elbows on her thighs and held her head with both hands in frustration. “You’ll just get hurt again. Have you already forgotten about her?”  

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Two women in black suits sat in a car. One by the name of Tanaka, sat down polishing her sun glasses with her white blouse and waited patiently for her partner to start the car.

They had both been assigned to a new mission to retrieve government property required for scientific research. A few days ago an experiment had escaped from one of their labs, identified as a UFO by the government. With the mission being identified as ‘top priority’, the two agents have been given authority to kill on sight without warning whoever has attempted to conceal the experiment. Now that they have attained enough information as to where the experiment (identified as KE1) may be, the two were off to do some snooping.

“Sayu what are you doing…” Tanaka turned around after putting on her glasses to see what her partner Michishige was doing. Once she saw that her partner was again wasting time by looking at herself in the mirror, she slammed the mirror compartment shut.

Pouting, Michishige muttered swear words under her breath. She started the engine and began making their way out of the parking lot they were in. “Alright, Where to?”

“Surveillance first. Suspect one, Niigaki Risa.” Tanaka said reading off the file she had. “At this time, she would be at work yes?”

“Why don’t we just search her apartment?”

“Shut up, I say surveillance.” Tanaka laid back on her seat. “Besides we don’t even know if she has KE1 or not.”

Michishige sighed and rolled her eyes assuming her partner wasn’t looking in her direction. Tanaka was her senior and had been in the agency a few months longer than Michishige. In situations like these where Tanaka’s decisions were not the right course of action, all she could do was sigh and follow her partner’s orders. If they let KE1 get away the loss would be pinned on Tanaka rather than her anyway.

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Aaaand that’s that. I’ll be posting part 2.5 up soon, which will be in Gaki-san’s point of view. Do look forward to it~! ^_^
 

 

Our Fate – Chapter 5

Alright, some of you may be wondering why I’m posting this again, well the simple reason is that I accidentally deleted it lol. Since I did say I was going to try and write it again I thought putting it back up again would be good. ^_^

Our Fate Chapter 5

“huh?” I kept my eyes fixed on kamei-san , this time with my eyes wide open. I stopped stroking her hair and started making up theories in my head. “could this be? maybe kamei-san secretly does like me and isn’t talking to me because she’s shy or something? or perhaps she was having a sweet dream I was in? hmm…it all seems possible now. Hehehe…hohohohoho! yatta!”

A big grin appeared on my face. As I continued to grin and smile hoping that something good would happen to me, kamei-san was still resting her head on my lap. She sat up slowly and rubbed her eyes.

“ohayo gozaimasu~” her eyes were kind of squinted, she looked like she was doing some sort of strange wink. She still looked cute as usual.

“eri, its not morning yet, its afternoon… I guess you had a good sleep.” gaki-san was smiliing at me.

“yeah I felt comfortable. Sayu, thanks for lending me your lap. I felt as if I..was…in a..cloud..you..k-know?” She slowly turned her head towards me, sort of like an owl turning its head,very, slowly. She looked so shocked. I smiled and laughed awkwardly. She quickly sat down in her seat and looked away from me. She had a shocked expression. I guess I surprised her a little bit. I thought that kamei-san would say something but, we just sat there in awkward silence. A few seconds passed and now she seemed a little angry. Bahh, I guess all those theories of mine were wrong.

“ah, sorry…” I bowed, apologizing. I think I should return to my seat now. “sorry…” She didn’t say anything even after the second time I apologized. All she did was stare into empty space .

“sorry, kamei-san.” still, nothing, no word, not even a look. I slouched my shoulders and faced downward. I really don’t understand kamei-san. “kamei…san?” Please say something, anything. I stared at her for a bit, and then looked down sadly.

“hey whats up with you two?” takahashi-san looked at us back and forth. She seemed really worried.

“Please..”

“yeah, you two have been weird lately. I mean if its about that-” gaki-san was interrupted by michishige-san.

“gaki-san!!” she sounded angry at gaki-san for trying to bring up such a discussion. ” I don’t think thats necessary.” michishige-san sure is brave for talking to sub-leader like that. I glanced back at kamei-san with my head still hung low. She seemed even angrier now. I could sense that everyone in the bus was staring in my direction. This made the atmosphere around us even heavier. This won’t be good for the group if me and kamei-san are like this. Then the bus driver’s voice came over the speakers.

“we are now arriving at the studio.” a few seconds later the bus stopped and the doors opened. I immediately got up from my seat as fast as I could and left towards the doors. I kept walking until I reached the entrance to the studio. I heard our busdriver with our luggage calling for my name. I went back for my luggage. This sure is ruining my dramatic leave.

“Thank you.” I took my luggage and turned around to leave. Once I faced the other way, I saw kamei-san before me. The other members were also coming out, looking for their luggage. I stopped for a few seconds and looked at kamei-san. She opened her mouth but, no words came out. Her eyes were looking away from me, and she was fidgeting. I waited a while so that she could say what she wanted. After a few moments, she closed her mouth and seemed like she wasn’t going to say anything.

“I’ll see you inside the studio kamei-san.” I bowed and turned away to walk to the studio. I went inside and stopped halfway in the long hallway leading to the lounge. I looked at my hand, clenched it, then opened it again. I don’t know why but, I feel like crying. The state our relationship is in right now, with her treating me like a stranger, hurts. That and the added fact that she rejected me, knowing that I’ll never be with her, ever, hurts like hell. That little moment that happened gave me hope, then it was immediately crushed, and confirmed an already known fact that kamei-san really doesn’t want anything to do with me.

“Junjun?” I immediatly rose my head and turned my body to face tanaka-san. I tried to put my best fake ‘I’m-all-right’ face. I put on a huge smile, though my eyes gave me away.

“Junjun…” tanaka-san walked up closer to me. She looked up at me in the eyes. She looked kind of worried. Out of no where tears flowed out of my eyes, though I was still smiling. Slowly that smile disappeared, and I started to sniffle.

“Are you alright?!” tanaka-san grabbed my hand and looked at me. Geez, I really am such a big crybaby, crying in a place like this. Some people who were in the hallway were looking at me wondering what was going on. Tanaka-san surveryed the place and then grabbed my hand and ran to the left hallway. “hora, come on.” My eyes were closed up until we arrived to this place…it was all dark and cramped. I opened my eyes and I could see nothing. It was pretty hot in here too. Despite being in a strange place I kept on crying and sniffling.

“kyaaa!! get it off me!!” tanaka-san jumped up and grabbed onto my waist as if it was for her dear life. I stopped crying a little bit and felt the walls looking for a light switch. I found one and turned the lights on. I looked around and saw that we were in a closet. Though it was spacious, the extra clutter made the it really hard to move in. Me and tanaka-san barely had enough space to move. Tanaka-san was still clenching onto my waist rather tightly. I saw that a mop had attacked her and I removed it from her head. She was still clenching onto my waist.

“umm…you *sniff*can *sniff* let go *sniff* now.”

“ahh, sorry. So whats wrong junjun?” she looked up at me.

“it’s *sniff*…hard to explain *sniff*.”

“does it have to do with eri?” I nodded, then cried some more.

“ahh! sorry! well what happened between you two?” honestly, why is she asking such an obvious question? she should have heard by now… “well, its kind of hard to explain…”I kept crying.

“junjun…” tanaka-san lifted up her hand to my face and wiped away some tears. “junjun, if you have anything thats worrying you, you can always talk to me or the other members. aren’t we like family?” eww tanaka-san, you’re making it sound like I’m in love with my sister or something, gross. I nodded and wiped away my tears.

“nee, tanaka-san? *sniff* why are we in a closet? *sniff*”

“well, I didn’t want everyone staring at us.A huge scene would be made, and besides this is the nearest room I could find where people wouldn’t be staring at you.” she looked up at me with those cute eyes of hers. ” Anyway junjun, don’t keep everything to yourself. I’ve noticed you’ve been doing that a lot lately. It doesn’t hurt to share your feelings with someone.”

As I was listening to tanaka-san speaking I couldn’t help but be distracted by something odd. I didn’t notice until now. I felt something squishy pushing up against my stomach. It was tanaka-san’s chest. The sensation was really…good. My eyes were then fixated on the specific area and I started to imagine all sorts of things. I’m such a pervert. This closet is really small. I snapped back into reality a few moments later.

“thank you tanaka-san…” I smiled sweetly at her. That kind of made me feel better, the advice I mean. I continued to stare at her and she stared back at me. She looked so cute. Then I felt something strange in me. I felt a bit warm and my heart started to beat faster. I started to blush. This feeling… is familiar.

“we should get going now, the members are probably looking for us. Tell me more about your situation later, okay? please?” she tugged at my sleeve and smiled at me. Damn it she’s cute. After that, she poked her head out to see if it was okay to step out. She gave the okay and we went out almost falling to the floor.

“there they are!” mitsui-san ran up to us and pulled tanaka-san by the hand. “hurry up, tsunku-san has something really important to tell us. We were waiting for you!” I ran after the two. I too was curious about what tsunku-san had to say. I tucked away those bad moments with kamei-san in the back of my head and tried to focus on something else. I was really excited for what tsunku-san was going to tell us, I wonder what it could be?

New layout! :D

I decided to put in a new layout for the site well because… the old one was simply bland looking xD

Hope you guys like it! I hope to put in some sort of graphics later on (as soon as Photoshop stops acting up on me…)

The Current Situation… is bad.

Alriiight. I’ve noticed that there’s a lot of promises that I’ve made but haven’t fulfilled and for that I feel very ashamed of myself.  I want to make it up to everyone and post the things I said I would and write the things I should.

Right now though I just feel… at my lowest point because of this. I hate not finishing things and it seems I have a lot of that here.

For instance my first fanfic Our Fate has been on hiatus for a year and a half. Tsk tsk. Not very good is it. I don’t want to make another promise about it or get everyone’s hopes up, but I’ll try and push myself harder to try and write it.

Current Status for current fics/oneshots/mini fics:

Our Fate : Currently on hiatus, ver. 2 has been crapped and previous version will be continued if possible with the same writing style.

Hey! Just Smile (aka The Color of Our Memories) : Still ongoing, currently at chapter 5.

Buta Onna to Zetsubou-san (Gakikame Oneshot) : Parts 1 and 2 have yet to be published on this blog. Parts 2.5 – 3 have been completed and will be released soon after.

Lately I’ve been disappointed in my writing style. I remember when I first started I loved doing it and just writing whatever comes to mind. Now I plan and make it seem like a tiresome project, which is ridiculous to be honest. *sigh* Writing for me should be fun shouldn’t it? =(

And even though I try not to write so seriously and just have fun, I always slip back into the habit of writing seriously. ROFL I think I’m taking this out of proportions. Well thats how I feel but.. now that I’m writing this way there’s not much I can do about it. Everything is already set and I can’t just suddenly write  ‘crap’ if you know what I mean.

LOL At first I got into fic writing because of the lack of Jun fics, but lately I haven’t been writing much about any Jun pairings. BLAH.

Oh well. I’ll try and get out of my loop and just write whatever. This is supposed to be fun! xD

Upcoming stuff….

The Color of Our Memories: Chapters 1 – 4.5

NEW GakiKame two-three part oneshot “Without You/With You/Want You”

Possible Part 3 of “Stand by You”: Reunion

Another in the works oneshot, possibly about host clubs, gender bending and gangs.

Right now, thats all I have planned.

“Our Fate” hiatus

As most of you have noticed, I haven’t updated my fic for about 3-4 months by now. I’m sorry I haven’t everyone! I already have everything planned out, but I haven’t started on chapter 9 yet. The reason for this is because I’ve gain some new ideas for my fic, that may alter the whole storyline so far. So because of this I had a hard time deciding whether I should continue like this or simply start all over again. The option I chose was to make two versions of the story, but to keep the same storyline, but change how I’ve written it. If some of you have read my fic on JPH!P I already made another version of this fic, which is just simply at a faster pace and explains the characters circumstances a bit more thoroughly.

For the past few months I’ve also had a MASSIVE writer’s block when it comes to this fic, so although I know what I’m going to write when I actually get to it my head goes blank. I’ll have to take a breather and see if I can get my mind up and running again (lol it sounds like I have a disease or something XD)

I’m really sorry that I only informed you of this only recently. Some of you may have stopped reading, but for those of you anxiously waiting for chapter 9 please bear with me!

Rabu-Rabu Ranchu!

Here’s my third oneshot. I think I’ll be taking a break from writing angst for a while, at least not the type my previous oneshot had lol. I beat myself up for a week for making Gaki-san, Eri and Reina do such stupid things >:(

 

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Lunchtime, the time most students look forward to during the normal school day, especially for one Jun Li. Though today, something was rather strange: while everyone was busy eating their lunch, Jun, the boy who would usually be stuffing his face by now, was fast asleep. Seeing this odd happening before them, Jun’s eight friends which all sat in a somewhat circular formation, wondered why he would sleep rather than eat. The girl who had been his first friend upon entering Haro Academy, Sayu, was puzzled and at the same time felt troubled. Looking at his sleeping face she frowned, and thought about waking him up. It was during these occasions that she felt she had to act responsible for Jun. Lifting her hand from area of the desk she laid it upon, she slowly went into the action of waking him up, but was stopped when her fellow buddy, Ren interrupted her.

 

“Wait! Stop. Doesn’t his face look funny?” With that, everyone leaned in closer to look at the chinese transfer student’s face. Drool was coming out of his mouth that went onto his sleeve, and the snot bubble from his nose grew bigger and then smaller as he inhaled and exhaled. Sayu giggled a bit and poked Jun’s cheek, causing him to turn his head the other way with a soft grunt. Amazingly, when Jun turned his head around the bubble stayed intact, which especially attracted attention to Ren, who was known for playing a few jokes on his friends. Jun’s small fanclub behind him already beat Ren to the punch by taking pictures of his gross, yet adorable sleeping face which they would later publish on their blogs. A few ‘kyaa~!’s could be heard as they huddled in the corner of the classroom exchanging photos.

 

As Jun was sleeping, Sayu stared at his cute child-like face, a smile creeping up on her. Even if Jun looked weird while sleeping, if she were to take away the snot bubble and drool, his face looks quite peaceful. Laying her head down on the desk, she continued to look at Jun, twirling his hair as she did and out of nowhere she noticed that Jun began to smile too. Lightly giggling to herself, she took out her cellphone, flipped it open and took a picture of the boy before her, which she then set as her cellphone’s wallpaper. Admiring the new picture she took, a thought came to her mind. “Maybe I should wipe off the drool…” Sayu then took out a handkerchief from her bag and wiped off the clear liquid that came out from the corner of Jun’s mouth.

 

“Tsch, stupid fangirls…saves me the time of embaressing him myself I guess.” He then resumed sipping on his coffee flavoured drink box. “…Wait, I have fangirls too!” Remembering this fact, Ren turned around and saw the girls which usually lined up around him behind his desk during lunch time, to be walking back to their classrooms, heads down and disappointed.

 

“Haha, baka, baaaaka. Now you won’t be getting free lunches from now on.” Eri his girlfriend, teased Ren for thinking before he speaked. To be honest though she was quite glad that Ren said that. Now she can have him all to herself without having to be scared about some crazed Ren-obsessed girl making voodoo dolls out of her.

 

“Well, as long as you don’t stop making me lunch I’m fine… your’s is the only one I care about anyway.”

 

“OOOOOO~” Ren blushed hearing the spectator comment that came from Kuu. He folded his arms and turned away from Eri.

Blushing really ruined his manly essence which he tried so hard to create for the past two years of his highschool life. Entering highschool, guys would always make fun of how short and girly he looked, and his senpais would pat him on the head as they walked past by. This was one of the moments that hurt his pride yet he didn’t mind paying the price. If it was for Eri he wouldn’t mind at all, it’s just that Kuu’s continuous teasing made it increasingly difficult for Ren, causing him to irk his eyebrows in annoyance.

 

“Arigato.” Seeing how adorable her boyfriend was being, Eri hugged him tightly and after a few moments let him go. “Tomorrow, I’ll make Ren-chan’s favourite~<3″ And with that she kissed him on the cheek and went back to eating her lunch composed of undefined substances, grinning.

 

“Ne, Ren, I don’t think you should’ve said that.” Kuu said, whispering into Ren’s ear.

 

“Crap!! How the hell’d you get here?!” Ren pushed away Kuu’s face which magically appeared a few centimetres away from his with both hands. Although in truth Ren couldn’t stand the taste of the food Eri made, he meant what he said. Despite the obscure creations Eri whipped up for him, Ren liked the fact that she thought of making lunch for him. If she were to suddenly stop he’d be devastated, but this time he may be having second thoughts about what he just said. “Better load up on that pepto bismol stuff.”

 

“Ahh, ii na. You guys make such an adorable couple. I’m so jealous.” Sayu puffed up her cheeks, and shifted her eyes from Jun to the ceiling. “Isn’t that right Jun?”

 

“Well, you have Jun-kun don’t you?” Being quiet for the past couple of minutes enjoying the warm atmosphere, Aika finally decided to pipe in and join the conversation.

 

“Yeah, I thought he confessed to you already!”

 

“I don’t like him that way.”

 

“Yeah, and everyone takes pictures of their friends sleeping, makes it their cellphone wallpaper and stares at it all googly-eyed.” Gaki said as he finished putting away his lunch.

 

“Yup! That’s right!”

 

“Kuu, please don’t talk while eating…” Aika quickly got out a napkin and started to wipe Kuu’s chin.

 

“Gomen nasai, Aika. Not very fitting as your boyfriend huh?” Kuu smiled nervously while scratching the back of his head. He always thought that he never could match up to Aika’s

expectations because he always saw her as lady like and elegant, compared to him who he always thought of as unkept and slobby. Even though he tried his best, his old habits would always come marching back in again.

 

“Daijoubu, daijoubu. I like Kuu-kun better this way.” After wiping off the little bits of rice on Kuu’s chin, Aika scrunched up the napkin and put it on top of her desk.

 

“Mou, I told you to just call me Kuu.” Putting a finger under Aika’s chin, Kuu turned Aika’s face towards him and tilted her head up. He lowered his eyelids, touched Aika’s lips and smirked mischeviously, closing the distance between him and her, until they finally-

 

“OKAY! CUT! CUT! CUT!” Sayu stood up and slammed her hands onto her desk, the sudden motion waking up Jun in the process. She had enough of all this lovey-dovey couple junk happening around her. Usa-chan wants to be happy too! But then again it’s all her fault for rejecting the boy she liked the most. You could say that seeing the three couples before her, reminded her of the stupid decision she made.

“I’m tired off all this EriRen, TakaGaki, AiKuu or whatever pairing names these hormone driven girls come up with!! Ya her meh?! Tai-yerd!!”

 

“What did you say during the last part? Her turd? Who’s turd?”

Sayu slapped herself in the forehead and massaged her eyebrows in irritation as a result of Linlin’s comment. Never again will she pull out her country accent. 

 

“Linlin!”

 

“Ouch! Why! What did I do?!” Gaki slapped Linlin in the back of the head for saying something inappropriate at the wrong place and time.

 

“Eri… don’t you think Sayu’s jealous because-”

 

“She liked a certain someone-”

 

“But rejected him?”

 

“And now she’s feeling bad because she didn’t accept his feelings?”

 

“DESU YO NE?” Eri and Ren, both in perfect synchronization completed each other’s sentences and ended it off by closing their eyes and nodding also at the same time, all in an attempt to annoy Sayu even more (which was VERY beneficial to their amusement).

 

“If only you guys knew the other half of the story…” Sayu said, her voice being reduced to a mumble as she did. She sat back in her seat, nudging her desk forward while doing so. Her soda bottle swayed from left to right as she adjusted the positioning of the desk and it wasn’t long before it spilled onto her uniform blouse. “Ah!!”

 

“Geez…” Sayu just sat there and looked at the liquid pouring out from the bottle to her blouse. So much of it had already spilled on her shirt that she felt that it was useless to pick up the bottle to stop it from spilling.

 

“What are you doing! Does anyone have a tissue? Hurry!” Jun looked around worriedly hoping that someone around him would have one and to his surprise no one did. Panicking, he stood up, frantically looking around thinking that he would come up with a solution.

 

“Jun, don’t worry it’s just an- UWHOA!” Before Gaki could finish his sentence, Jun began to take off his uniform shirt, exposing his toned stomache until a few moments later he finally took off the whole piece of clothing revealing his bare upper body.

 

“Kya~!! Jun-sama~~!!” The girls which surrounded the group squealed in excitement, some of them speechless and dumbfounded. No one understood what Jun was doing. Never had they seen him be so rash as this before, especially over something so trivial as a stain. A huge stain.

 

“Sayumi, here, put this on.” Jun handed the white garment over to his friend, not caring about whether or not he was half naked or if his actions were logical. For some reason when it came to this girl, the chinese transfer student became noticeably more overprotective than he already was towards other people.

 

Sayu who was completely blanked out, focused all her attention on Jun’s body, her eyes wide open and her cheeks heating up furiously. Jun had to repeat his request twice in order for her to finally nod and put the shirt on. In the midst of putting on the white dress shirt over her now soda stained uniform top, Jun grabbed Sayu’s hand and ran out of the classroom, leading her to the nurse’s office. Everyone slackjawed just watched the two run out of the room, turning their heads as they did so. After they left the room, the group remained quiet still a bit shocked about the events that took place. A few moments later, the door slidded open creating a loud thud as it hit the wall, the sound bringing them back to reality.

 

“I’m back! I have the napkins you wanted as well! Are?”

 

“Ai-chan… you were unexpectedly slow.”

 

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“You didn’t have to do that. I could have lived with this…”

 

“Really?”

 

“Yes… well… no.”

 

Sayu sat on top of the bed in the nurse’s office and looked out the window. She couldn’t look at Jun right now in fear of her wandering eyes. The breeze that came into the room calmed her nerves and quieted down her heartbeat. Jun sat on the opposite side of the bed waiting for Sayu to speak up and say something. With each passing second, the silence became more and more awkward.

 

“So… what was that about back there?” Jun asked, turning around to face Sayu’s back.

 

“YOU HEARD ALL THAT?!” Sayu turned around immediately, and climbed over the bed, practically tackling Jun down. In response, Jun gave a slow nod looking deep into Sayu’s eyes.

 

“Everything? Even what those two idiots said.. about me and you…” Jun smiled brightly, his teeth blindening Sayu because of how angelic he appeared. This smile meant yes and was used to answer any awkward question directed at him.

 

“W-well, i-it’s not true.” She turned around and crawled back to the place she was originally sitting in, when Jun suddenly grabbed her wrist and pulled her back closer to him. Now both of them were kneeling on the bed on opposite sides, using their arms to support their weight.

 

“But it is true. Isn’t it?” Averting her eyes away from Jun’s, she remained quiet and tried not to answer the question, no matter how right he was. Both of them stayed like that, with Jun looking desperately at Sayu. After their graduation ceremony tomorrow, Jun the son of a rich movie company CEO, would be getting married to his fiancee. If he didn’t try his best to get Sayu to feel the same about him, he wouldn’t be able to live peacefully after tomorrow… atleast, that’s what he told her. 

 

Before he let go of Sayu’s wrist, he tightened his grip in frustration and sighed.

 

“Even if I did feel the same about you, Linlin’s parents or your’s wouldn’t approve of it would they?” Jun stayed quiet looking at the girl admired and loved since he first transferred to this school.

 

“I didn’t expect you to be this stubborn usagi-chan…”

 

“Stubborn? I’m only doing what’s best.”

 

“Really?” “I swear this whole fiancee thing would have worked…” Jun got up and made his way over to Sayu, so that he would be standing in front of her. He leaned in closer and closer, causing Sayu to backaway until she finally lay down on the bed. Hovering above Sayumi, using his arms to hold him up, Jun began to unbutton her shirt, slowly, button by button.

 

“Usagi-chan, you know, my friends back home don’t call me ‘the kissing demon’ for nothing.” Sayu looked up at Jun, mesmerized by how seductive he was being. His eyes had a strange shine to them that drew her nearer and nearer, and soon enough she found herself pressing her lips onto his, sitting up while doing so. Jun tugged on Sayu’s lower lip, and then pecked on her lips a few times before applying even more force to the kiss. A few seconds went by and Sayu found herself to be out of breath. Jun lowered her shirt and then yanked it off immediately, parting their lips.

 

“Thanks, I needed my shirt back.” Getting off of the bed, and standing up, Jun put his shirt back on and acted as if nothing happened. Clueless about the events that took place, Sayu stared into space. She touched her lips unconsciously, the feeling of Jun’s lips on hers tingling throughout her body. Amazingly, she lingered for more.

 

“So, it’s a yes then? As in yes, you love me too?” Jun squatted down after putting his shirt back on and was now at eye level with Sayumi. He held both her hands gently and smiled, his eyes doing the same as well. After a few moments, Sayu nodded, her cheeks crimson red. She couldn’t deny it any more at this point and was really relieved that she got the feeling off her chest. With that, Jun smiled even wider his teeth now showing.

 

“Yatta! Yatta!” Jun then paraded around the room, dancing in glee.

 

“But… what about your fiancee, Linlin?”

 

“Oh that? Obviously it was a joke. A two week old joke too.”

 

“I’m sorry Sayu for playing such a big joke on you…” Sayu frowning, bit her lower lip in order to stop herself from what she was about to do.

 

“Sayumi! D-don’t cry! I’m sorry okay? Ne?” Wiping off Sayu’s tears and stroking her long black hair, Jun smiled, assuming that his smile would help the girl in front of him to stop crying. Instead of the tears ceasing to come down, they came down even harder and soon enough Jun got an unexpected reaction… a hug. A hug so tight he questioned the girl’s supposed lack of strength.

 

“Jun is a big meanie. But… I love him.”

 

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I’m really sorry for putting Linlin with anyone! I’m such a bad panda fan DX

Because I Love You (TanaKameGaki Oneshot Part 2)

Friday. April, 9th. 8:06 am
“ERI!  How did I get here??”

What am I doing in Eri’s house?!  The last thing I remember was that I was crying back at that alley, and nothing else apart from that. Did I fall asleep there?

“I called you to see if you wanted to walk home with me, but you didn’t pick up your cellphone. Then I went to the rehearsal room to check if you were there, but since everyone was crowding around it because someone apparently trashed the place, I couldn’t get in. Some people said there could’ve been a fight there as well since there were a few blood stains on the walls, mirrors and floors… actually there were more on the floors, so much that even the police started to investigate the place.”

My eyes shot open and my pupils suddenly became smaller. It won’t take long for them to figure out it was me, no time at all, that’s why I really have to get out of here! The heavy pounding of my heart once again came back and all I could hear right now was the very sound. If I get caught, life is over for me in  a different aspect other than dying. Eri, as well as the members will hate me and never want to see me again, all my fans will abandon me, Hello!Project will go down because of me, and I’ll have to spend time in prison. After that where will I go?! Who would want to hire an idol who killed someone?! I didn’t even finish highschool! It’s impossible.

“Reina is something wrong?” Escape. That was the next thing that conquered my train of thought. I didn’t know if it was a good idea or not, but I really didn’t care. Fear was what took over me right now and logic seemed to be something unimportant at this point.

Taking the plate from her hands, practically swiping it off of her, I stuffed the breakfast she made into my mouth as if I had been starving though I wasn’t. I quickly thought of a way to get Eri away from me and escape, making up the plan as I continued to eat my breakfast. What do I do? If she were to know I had a cold then- wait… I felt the top of my head and noticed a wet spot that wasn’t my skin. It was a cloth soaked in cold water, which apparently stuck to my forehead as I sat up. People put these on their heads to cool down a person’s temperature when they have a cold or fever.  Then She does know I’m sick! She’ll never leave my side if it’s like this then! Think, hmm…

“Can you get me something to drink and an extra pillow?”

“Sure!” She smiled brightly and skipped off to get my requested items. She seems so happy… maybe she doesn’t know. I never really got how you could easily change topics while talking to her.

Hearing her footsteps fade into the kitchen, I quickly put on my clothes that were lying on the floor and… #&@$#!! Eri changed my clothes for me! Meaning she, she, she…! I checked my underwear to see if I was still wearing the same pair or not. I’m not. My cheeks heated up at the thought that Eri actually saw all of me, and I stared blankly into space.

What am I doing? Hurry up and get out!

After changing back into my clothes extremely fast, which mind you was freshly laundried, I went out of Eri’s room with struggle and tip-toed towards the entrance doors. Halfway through the living room I began to sway in my walking and my headache worsened with each step. I held my head and tried my best to walk straight. I really won’t get far like this, and since Eri is really fast she’d catch up with me, still I have to try. I opened the doors and put my foot forward to go out, feeling partially relieved since I was almost close to going outside of her house. I felt a hand around my wrist, the sudden action caused me to stand still shocked. She caught me. This is a stupid idea, I should’ve just went out through a window or something! I can’t think straight, my headache is too strong right now. My cold made my whole body weak causing my legs to give in. I collapsed to the ground, my shoulder rubbing against the door post as I did.

“Where are you going?” I couldn’t answer. Telling her my reason for leaving would be too much on her.

“Just let me go.”

“You have a cold! and considering that you wandered off last night I’m wondering where you’re gonna go off to this time!” She tightened her grip on me, causing me to turn around and look up at her. Her expression showed great concern for me and her eyes became watery. Did I really worry her that much?

“Reina please stay.” The tone in her voice became softer and her eyes were downcast. I had never seen Eri worry this much about something, and seeing the distress she felt for me made me worry for her as well. “Please.” Although I wanted to stay, I just couldn’t. If I stayed here any longer, I’m sure they’ll find me out. They were already at the studio investigating. They probably found out where I hid Gaki’s body as well. I couldn’t go too far with it and I didn’t have anything big enough to put her body in to take it with me, so I used the back door in the rehearsal room which led to the back of the studio building, and carefully placed her in the huge garbage can there. The back of the building is an extremely narrow alleyway, which has tons of boxes piled on top of each other that blocked anyone from seeing what was in that narrow space, so hopefully no one would’ve seen me carrying her body away. I made it so that she would be at the abolute bottom, buried under all that garbage. It was a stupid idea I know, but there was no other way to hide what I did other than that. My hiding place was really simple, so I’m sure everyone aside from Eri knows Gaki is dead. That’s why I REALLY must leave before they find me. But what will Eri feel if I abandon her right now when she was worried sick about me yesterday?

“Fine.” I yanked my arm away from her in defeat. Holding my head in frustration, I got up and made my way back into her room my vision blurred. I really have no idea what I’m thinking. Making Eri worried was miraculously more important than my own safety right now. I guess my cold really is that bad.

“What happened?” I stopped walking and turned my head around to look at her. If I’m not cautious in how I answer then she will know.

“What do you mean?”

“Ever since after I found you in that alley, you’ve been acting weird, so I want to know, what happened to you?” A burn started to appear in my chest. The more Eri questioned me about my whereabouts last night, the more my guilt continued to increase, up until the point my chest started to burn. The scenes of how I killed Gaki played in my head over and over again. It was like a constant reminder from my conscience telling me to confess to the crime I had done.

Lie, just lie. If you even talk about at least one thing related to what happened at the studio, she’ll know about it. “Nothing! I just wanted to find shelter from the rain somewhere, and since I couldn’t find any I figured I should just rest in that alley until the rain stops.” I smiled widely, my face looking like a cat’s as usual, and pretended to stretch my arms “I was really tired you know, so before I knew it I had fallen asleep haha!” She stared at me in disbelief and then turned her head away from me.

ba-dump ba-dump ba-dump

“Another lie huh? Reina I know I’m stupid, but I’m not that stupid. Tell me the real reason.” I couldn’t look at her straight in the face anymore. All the questions she was asking made me feel increasingly guilty, more so than I already was. The burn in my chest as a result of my guilt also increased and I felt the sudden urge to get this off my chest. It actually began to hurt this time.

“I told you, that was what happened.”

tell the truth, you know it’s killing you.

Who’s voice was that?! It’s right though! I have to tell someone, anyone! If I don’t I’ll crack! It hurts, it hurts so much! come on, go ahead and tell her what really happened BE QUIET! I’m not telling her! No way! But if I don’t get this off my chest I’ll go insane! I began to tap my feet, hoping that it would help me control myself. The feeling of guilt within me shot up like crazy and my conscience began to haunt me. I didn’t know what was wrong with me, all I wanted to do was release the pressure that I had been keeping in.

“So you’re sticking with that lie? Both you and Gaki-san have been giving me a lot of those lately.”  She thinks Gaki is still alive? Well then I’ll just have to tell her then wouldn’t I? NO! stop!

“Gak-”

“Forget it then, you can go home if you want to.” Right there tears started to fall down her cheeks. Sniffling, she held her forearms, and looked down. Seeing her tears caused the guilt that nearly lead me to spill the beans to disappear for a short while. My mind suddenly was filled with thoughts about why Eri was crying. I took her hand and lead her to sitdown.  I pulled her into a deep hug, caressing her hair and whispered words of comfort into her ear. Why is she crying? I don’t think it’s about Gaki because right now she seems oblivious to what happened to her.

“Don’t worry I’m not going anywhere.”

“I just need you by my side right now. I haven’t told anyone about this yet…” So she’s crying because she wanted me by her side, but she couldn’t find me and now that she’s found me I want to leave her. I understand why she would feel this way.

“Told anyone what? and why not? Is it something important?”

“I didn’t tell anyone because it’s something really hard to tell them. I want you.” She wants me? No-no way she means it that way. She’s just asking me for something right? Yeah, that’s it!

“Well, maybe I can do something about it.”

She nodded and proceeded to tell me the reason for her sadness.

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Monday. April, 6th 11:42 am

Plowing through the crowd of people crossing the street, I quickly walked over to the train station, with Risa following behind me.

“Kame, wait! I’m sorry! I didn’t mean it!”  I didn’t bother turning my head. Risa was really making me angry with what she did, suddenly kissing me and feeling up my legs. I’m thinking a slap wasn’t enough to convince her that what she did was beyond stupid.I was so embaressed, and Reina was standing right there and she still didn’t stop! I wonder if Reina got the wrong idea about me and Risa. I sure hope not.

“Kame, wait, let me explain!” Risa put one of her hands on my shoulder, using me as support so she could catch her breath. I turned around and brushed her hand away.

“You’re an idiot! Yeah, now it’s my turn to call YOU the idiot!” I crossed my arms and continued to walk to the other side of the street while shouting at Risa. “You say you love me, but if you really love me you wouldn’t be so rash and be so close to practically raping me!”

“What else am I supposed to do?! I’ve confessed to you like a billion times yet the reply I always get is ‘you’re kidding right?’ and a massive load of laughter!”

“Risa, let me tell you something… You and Ai-chan are DATING. By confessing to me you’re CHEATING.” She opened her mouth to say something, but after hearing that what I said was right she backed away.

“I know but I made a huge mistake.”

“What?” I couldn’t hear what she was saying since she was mumbling, so I just looked at her in confusion.

“My feelings have changed, I’m sorry I didn’t realize my feelings earlier. I really like you Kame…” How could you say that? You’re dating Ai-chan! I remember how much trouble the group went because of you two. All those misunderstandings caused you two to fight so many times, and now you go ahead and say this to me? It’s just unfair, to me, everyone and Ai-chan. I remember the other day how she was telling me how happy she was to be with you. I can’t do this to her, it’s just too much.

“Don’t say that, just be quiet! I can’t be with you and you know it!”

“Why? Is it because of Reina? You like her don’t you?” Why is she bringing Reina into all of this? She’s right though, but I didn’t think anyone really noticed that. She really has a sharp eye. I couldn’t respond, I felt so embaressed that I lost the will to speak.

“I knew it. I really can’t win against her can I? Even though I spend more time than her with you, you just can’t get your mind off her. I guess that’s what makes what I did earlier necessary.” My jaw dropped and my arms hung loosely by my sides like noodles. Necessary?! Is something wrong with Risa today? Is her brain working properly?

“Apologize. Right now. To me and to Ai-chan.”

“No.”

slap! slap!

“How can you play with people’s feelings so easily?! This is definately not the caring Risa I know. G-get away from me, don’t follow me! Unless you come to your senses I never want to see you again!” She held her left cheek which had a red mark on it and remained like that until I could no longer see her anymore. Two slaps around this time really wasn”t enough.

Even if she were to break up with Ai-chan the next day, I still won’t accept her confession. No matter what she does, she won’t change my mind. Reina is the only person who’s confession I will accept, that is if she ever does…

Wednesday. April, 8th. 1:20pm

I woke up, my eyelides snapping open, and stared at the ceiling. I felt like getting up, yet I didn’t want to. Does that make sense? Come on Eri up you.. go? Ahh, my body isn’t listening to my brain today. But I can’t sleep anymore! Whatever, I’ll just try and go back to sleep. I turned over on my side and with my pillow over my head, I forcefully made myself go back to sleep.

“It’s impossible.”

“Wake up Kame!”

“OSHIT!”

I fell out of my bed and landed on the floor, my body facing towards the ground in the position of an “H”. Who was that! Rolling over, and then sitting up, I rubbed my head with the sheets still over me which were obstructing my view.”Whoever you are! beware! my thighs can kill!”

“Your thighs?”

“Yeah that’s right! S-so run away while you can!”

“EHH??” I know that “EH?” anywhere! that’s Risa! “Kame, it’s just me so will you relax?”

“What do you want?? I told you I never wanted to see you again unless you came to you-”

“I just came here to apologize.”  She lifted the sheets off of my head and chuckled a bit seeing how much I was over-reacting right now. Well compared to her my screams were nothing.

“Your mom let me in and she wanted me to wake you up. She was really frustrated on how much you slept in.” Mom should be used to it by now I do this all the time and I’ll probably do it some more too, hmph. I climbed over to my bed and sat on top of it with my legs crossed.  “Anyway, I just wanted to say sorry for umm… violating you.”

“And?”

“Playing with people’s feelings. Sorry for being a big idiot, I guess this is one of the few times I wasn’t thinking before I’ve said something.” I nodded my head in a proud manner and breathed in the air in my room through my nose heavily, only to cough shortly after that. So I guess this is how Risa feels when scolding other people?

“Let me just say this.” I stopped nodding and my ears perked up to listen in to what she was about to say. Please don’t say something stupid Risa. “Although you think I’m playing around with people and their emotions I’m not. I don’t get how you can’t see that.”

I sighed and looked up at her frowning, my arms still crossed. “This again?”

“Yes, this again! You think it was easy for me to say I like you over and over again?!” she came closer and closer towards me. The look in her eyes scared me, they weren’t the smiling eyes of Risa everyone knew. “Kame, I’ve already thought my decision thoroughly before telling you how I felt, even the first time I told you, and I realized this was the right one. That’s why I haven’t gaven up on you.” Risa pushed me down towards my bed and pulled me into a deep kiss.  What is she doing?! Didn’t she just apologize?? what sort of apology is this!  I tried to push her off me, but she pinned me down holding my wrists, her grip being hard. What’s going on??

She continued to kiss me and eventually got so caught up in it, that she pushed her tongue through my lips and into my mouth. I let out a muffled cry, yet she didn’t listen to me. She caressed my tongue with her’s, licking every single area of it. After that, she went further down my body creating a trail of kisses from my cheek to my neck. Both my hands were  being held by her hand, and were pinned up over my head.

“Ri..sa, stop!” She isn’t listening to me! My body isn’t either, it was as if my defenses became weaker and I couldn’t do anything about it. I didn’t know what had happened to my strength to fight back.

Once she was done sucking on my neck, she lifted my shirt and went under my bra. She cupped my breasts and moved them in a circular motion, a bit too roughly. “Kame, your nipples are getting hard, are you enjoying this?” I couldn’t answer, my will to speak was stolen from me and still, despite that she went on with what she was doing. Risa ripped off my shirt and took off my bra. She licked my nipples a few times and started to suck on them, and while doing that, her other hand accompanied my other breast, squeezing them. I tried once more to push her off of me, but It didn’t work, my hand just grabbed onto her shirt lifelessly. I couldn’t push her off no matter how many times I would tell my arms to move. My brain knew exactly what to do, but for some reason my body shut off and wasn’t listening.My tears started to fall. I couldn’t take how she touched me in places I didn’t want her to touch and I hated how helpless I felt. I felt scared, why is she doing this to me?

“I know you’ll like this. Right kame?” I stared at her in the eyes. They were blank and held no emotion, other than lust.

Out of no where she took off my pyjama pants and underwear in one swift movement, and stuck one of her fingers in my private area. One finger went in and then another. I squirmed at the touch. Thankfully it apparently was just in time to awaken my body. I kicked her off, her head snapped back and she fell off my bed. I grabbed my bedsheets, covering myself up. My eyes didn’t dare meet hers, the shame I felt was way to much.

“So this is your way of saying sorry? What a liar you are.”

“Kame, I-”

“SHUT.UP. You tell me you love me, but what you did right now was the total opposite of that.” She didn’t say anything, she remained silent and looked at me, complete shock on her face. It’s like real Risa came back after being possesed by something else.

“I wish you would just disappear from my life.” I know I thought I would never say that but I felt so angry, how could I not? I kind of think she deserves it too.

“I’m sorry kame! I didn’t know what wa-”

“JUST GET OUT!!” I threw a pillow at her, my tears coming down even harder than before. In response to that she hurriedly got up and left. It’s inevitable that I’ll see you again, but for sure though, I’ve lost all respect for you and you’ve lost all ties with me. Yet even though I now this, the wound that you’ve given me will scar for sure, and I don’t think anyone can make it go away.

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Friday. April, 9th. 9:03 am

All the things that Eri told me made me feel as if I had failed in protecting her. I wanted to get mad at Gaki, yet there was no more room for me to do so. I already got rid off her, so what more could I do to her now.

“Why didn’t you tell me earlier??”

“I wanted to last night but you disappeared remember? I didn’t sleep since it took me forever to find you.”

“I’m never there for you am I?” I hugged her tightly, grabbing her shirt as I did so. I can’t believe how I just left her alone! If I was there then maybe that would’ve never happened! Now Eri is going to have to live with this for the rest of her life. What can I do now though? I’ll end up hurting her even more now because of what I did. All these things happening all at once, this is too much on my heart at the moment!

“You’re the only one I trust Reina.”

At that moment I felt Eri push her soft pair of lips onto mine. They were moist and tasted like strawberries. All I could do was sit there, completely shocked. Eri, likes me? She likes me?! We broke apart after having stayed like that for what seemed like an eternity to me.

“Eri, this is too sudden. Are you sure you’ll be alright?”

“No, but somehow I feel like I can trust you. I’ve always liked you Reina.” Eri don’t say that, you can’t trust me, I’m the last person you would want to trust. I thought I was strong by beating up people when I got mad, but that’s not right, that’s not what makes me strong. In truth I’m weak, and I’m not fit to protect you, therefore we can’t be togethe because all I will bring you is pain and suffering.

“I can’t protect you Eri-” I looked up to face Eri, and she wasn’t there. Wasn’t I just talking to her? Turning my head to the side, I saw eri had fallen asleep on my shoulder. She looked so cute. I laid her down on the sofa for a brief moment and went to fetch a pillow and blanket. I put the pillow under her head and the blanket over her body. I lifted her bangs up and kissed her forehead, and after doings so, I stared at her sleeping. I smiled, but I felt like something had yet to be explained. Walking over the the vacant sofa seat next to the one Eri was on, I staggered, almost falling down. My body was burning, my headache became even more worse and I wanted to stop thinking and just go to sleep, but something was still distubring me. I pondered at what it would be, and I finally got to the conlusion.

What I did to Gaki… was it right despite what I just heard? At first my perception was that she was using Eri and Ai-chan as tools for her own pleasure, but if that’s not true then why did I go to such an extreme for? I didn’t know the fact that she fully violated Kame before, so doesn’t that make my reason stupid? Because I was jealous, and angry? I think that shows how much self control I lack. Then really, didn’t I kill Gaki for no reason? Arghh.. I’m so confused, and I want to stop thinking about this but I won’t be able to rest if I do.

One thing I don’t get though is, why didn’t she fight back? She would have been able to stop me if she at least tried then why not?

“I wish you would just disappear from my life.”

That could be it, that has to be it. Risa… you wanted to die didn’t you? You didn’t want to stop me didn’t you?! Even though what you did was WAY BEYOND wrong and stupid, I can’t kill you! You’re still my friend, the person I’ve known for many years, I just wish I figured that out before it was too late. Both of us were wrong, and instead of caring for Eri we ended up hurting her instead. Love totally got the best of us.

I got up and went over to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth, washed my face and fixed myself up. I leaned over the sink and looked myself in the mirror. Should I turn myself in? It’s probably the best thing to do… it’s the fair thing to do right?  That’s definately what must be done. I finished fixing myself up and got a jacket to warm myself from the cold. I wonder if I’ll be fine like this, better call a taxi, if I commute by myself I’ll faint. After calling the taxi company and asking for a cab, I took a nearby pen and found some paper and began to write my message to Eri once she wakes up.

Eri, I’m sorry. I can’t be with you and I can’t protect you. I know that if I leave, you’ll end up hurting more, but if I stay with you what will become of us? You’ll find out sooner or later what I did, and hate me just like Gaki. I’ve already caused enough trouble, for you and everyone, so  you guys don’t need me anymore. Know one thing though, I always did love you. I wish I just had the guts to say that before all this happened.

I looked over her once more and smiled, a painful smile. The tears rolled down my cheeks, and I wiped them off with my sleeve, some of them falling onto Eri’s forehead. For the last time I kissed her on the lips, making sure to remember the feeling.

“Goodbye.”

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